Brutality and Cruelty Is Thy Name

May 08, '08


A Letter To KP SHARMA


Dear Respected Sir,

I am extremely sorry for my rude and offensive language. These are my words of apologizing for my mistakes just as an acquainted person but not as an intimate friend. i seem to be nobody and nothing for the rest of the world. I sometimes express words and anger about you, it does not mean that i disrespect you but because I am mad and insane person who doesn't know to express sweet, polite, civilized and cultured language. I am an ordinary and simple person. I like to be direct, open and simplistic as news articles are written. I express what i feel, see, experience and know...it may be truth or false, right or wrong whatever it is. All these are the bi-products and consequences of injustice upon me. However, i feel I am ruined and deserted person. I am under acute pains and suffering caused by troubles and harms by unknown persons from behind the curtain...i am so dull that i don't know the reason why they are against me...it seems that the whole world is against me. I express offensive and rude language about others when i am hurt. My life is full of wounds and injuries. I am unable to tolerate these for the longer time. When others touch or poke my wounds, i experience extreme pains and suffering...it makes me bleeding the heart....all those words expressed in pains and suffering reveal my painful condition and those words may be bitter and harsh for others though i never intend to do so; and my deeds and actions have never violated others' human rights. Expression of those words is only the revelation and catharsis of my pains and suffering. I request others not to take it otherwise. If others don't touch me, i will be silent and express no words against others. I plead YOU to forgive me taking me as silly and crazy person. Others who doesn't understand my pains might be angry with me and may take revenge to sabotage and jeopardize my life for those words. However, whatever i speak, I am not a person to harm others...i am never against justice, humanity and human rights. I feel some people inclining to evil forces from behind the curtain have blocked me for entertaining my rights, they seem to be the bosses of injustice, inhumanity and cruelty against human rights. I feel i can live no more because of such pains...it is better for me to die rather than to face the unwanted and unjust oppression, pains, troubles, harms and sad moments. I expect nothing from you but only to forgive me, to help me live a peaceful life and allow me to entertain the human rights. If all the pains and sufferings persist or continue taking over me, i will contemplate to embrace death. My life is ending and finishing for the betterment of my soul. Once again, I apologize for my stupid and nonsense words and savage behavior...i WISH ALL OF YOUR LIVES BE HAPPY AND SUCCESSFUL.& YOUR SISTER'S LIFE BE HAPPIEST AND MOST SUCCESSFUL.

--
Victimized unluckily
ugly and stupid fellow

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It Is Hard to Believe but It Is Hard Truth

Jul 14, '08


: I have never seen such a brutal person in this world


It has not been one year, neither it has been two years, nor it has been five years, nor it has been 10 years. It has been 15 years, a team of KP [Krishna] Sharma has been following me from behind the curtain. It is too much. It is to say better that it is more than enough. He is troubling me unnecessarily, torturing me inhumanely. He seems to be very inhumane, vicious and unjust to me.

It seems it is such a fiction or a story which they can believe hardly. they who can not understand may think I have gone mad or crazy. Neither I am crazy nor the story is fantasy. This is the true story that I beheld and experienced in my life...either you believe it or not.

The only thing I did is I wanted to live in my own way and to be single rather than living with a bad girl as a life partner. He is too angry with me because i did not marry his sister whom I have never seen in this life. I cannot say how she is, good or bad. Relationship is made friendly, not brutally...The only problem with him is he has a family problem and marrying off his sister. If he has problem, he must tell and ask for help. Nobody will understand his problem without being told.

He warned me to destroy, finish, and ruin my life and block my each and every progress if I did not marry his sister. I have taken nothing from him nor I have harmed anybody in this life. However, he is punishing me for his family problem. If nobody is likely to accept his sister, it is not my mistake. The only ego he lives up is he is a journalist and has a big link and connection with each and every people. He can do anything whatever he likes. However, one is too powerful, one has any weakness in one's life. But he never admits his weakness. He is the lord of evilness and has kept on harming me continually for not marrying his invisible sister.

It is shocking that he has pretended that he is in the USA but staying in Kathmandu and he tends to sabotage and jeopardize my life from behind the curtain claiming that he has done nothing against me. He suggests me visiting psychiatrist for speaking truth. However, I would like to say that he, who claims being away by staying in Kathmandu, is sick and needs to consult the psychiatrist. He seems not to be in normal condition. He speaks false and claiming that he is speaking truth. It may be the psychiatric problem but I don't know what this actually is.

I have suffered too much, experiencing pains and tortures though i have not other problems. Nowadays, I am contemplating suicide rather to tolerate such injustice and live a miserable life. No one may believe in how he is following me and hurting and harming me from behind the curtain. I pary God for granting me death at this moment.

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Ego is Quest for Self

Mar 30, '08


Do you Have Ego Problem?


Yes, I have. Don't worry about it. Everybody has ego problem to some extent. It is very important to understand oneself, level of consciousness and their activities. Ego is not bad but super ego may be dangerous. Ego and freedom, I think, are two sides of a coin. If you go into the deeper level, they both are one. Super ego may be destructive and harmful to others, and ego is good for human being if it is well understood. Ego is the best or in other words it is the replica of self esteem whereas it does not harm and hurt others and it doesn't like to be hurt or harmed. This level of conscious of ego is the best thing, I have experienced it. Ego is the super freedom emanated from the state of liberty. I have such kind of ego which is not harmful, never disrespects others but does not care others too, it is my freedom. I am proud of my ego which never intends to harm and hurt others. No man can remain alive ego that is the force or energy for struggle, living and justice.

However, I have witnessed a man with obsessive super ego of position and power. His name is Govinda Sharma, but he lacks the every traits of Lord Krishna, teacher of laughing religion and ecstasy with no anxieties and unconsciousness. I saw Govinda very rude, inhumane and sense of evilness. He used to boast upon his power and position. I saw one of his classmate, named Vishnu Poduwal, who was very simple, innocent and an ordinary fellow with hardworking zeal, sense of humanity and justice, and selfless freedom. He did not like to dishonor others and wanted to live in his own way. he was carefree person like an enlightened philosopher. Many people fail to understand such people and they think such persons are very egoist. But the reality is opposite. They seem egoist, however, they are proud of existence and their freedom and justice. Most of the people who are unconscious and are full of meanness and superego see others with their own ego, they fail to understand others due to the lack of consciousness and eyes of justice.

It is an irony Govinda wanted to show and prove how powerful he is with his simple and innocent fellow. Govinda went on harming, torturing and troubling him for not fulfilling Govinda's mean demand related to his family problem. Govinda hammered on Vishnu for his life long and almost destroyed. He became more cruel, severe and robotic and Vishnu never surrendered to him. This continued till his death. Vishnu was clear and determined that he would accept death or ready to die but not to kneel down under Govinda's feet to solve Govinda's problem. Govinda claimed that Vishnu is too egoist and Vishnu realized that Govinda is not a human being. Govinda went on exhibiting his power of position and misuse of the power against humanity. He even never felt that his weakness and problems were being unveiled day by day but never realized his mistakes. Govinda was never ready to accept his weakness and ask Vishnu for help with mutual understanding and respecting humanity. This trend has been going on for ages and ages, and will reamin until the existence will exist on the universe.

Therefore, now you can examine the egos of Govinda and Vishnu. Can you tell me that having ego is wrong or not? Or who is right in the sense of humanity and freedom? Don't worry about it as ego is freedom, force for existence and energy or backbone of progress in life if it does not lead to catastrophe and destruction?

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Don't I Have My Liberty as Human Rights?

May 21, '08


All of My Individual Rights of Freedom Killed by SOMEONE


This has been more than enough. My every step of life has been obstructed. SOMEONE is badly following me for not marrying his sister who I have never seen in this life. He is peeking into my life---whatever I do, I speak, eat, read and wherever I go. He is watching me with focus and planning to fail my steps. My basic human rights of individuality and freedom has been intervened and obstructed to entertain. I have felt it has been very difficult to live in such a painful situation. He is all doing it from behind the curtain...........

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I don't want to live more

Jan 15, '08


I am happy to close this chapter of life


Many people, I think, fear death. However, I am excited to meet death, to touch its hands in experience and to embrace it with love and peace, leading to eternal peace.

It is an interesting thing to unveil that I visited an astrologer last week to know about my future. I don't know his predictions are true or not but I am happy with him who predicted that my soul will leave my body and my body will say goodbye to this physical world in 2008. This event will occur in between March and June this year.

I am watching every moment passing by...they are amazing, marvelous and wonderful because only I can see this going on. You may think it is absurd, foolish, stupid, and insane belief. I am sorry I am unable to make you understand in words what I feel now. This is my experience...i am watching...everything is passing on...each will die one day...it is only the matter of sooner or later...I am celebrating this time with rejoice and ecstasy, bliss and happiness...I don't want to live more suffering, suffocating with pains and sores caused by demons, devil souls, lord of evils and unconscious minds which are egoist, sadist and inhumane masters...

If this happens in reality my enemies will be happier but i will be much more happier than all of them who are troubling, torturing and tending to destroy me. Thanks God, I will be the luckier if i can touch almighty death. I am desperately waiting for the moment. But I can't say what will happen later and after death. I feel life is an eternal journey...it was my only one episode on this earth..i am on the way...i will continue my journey till i am salivated with nirvana or get enlightened that i am still unknown about it...i had nothing, i have nothing and i will have nothing...only the experience of journey which is being deleted by time...

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A Tale of a Trouble Caused by Friend VS Foe

Apr 07, '07




...FROM PREVIOUS PART...

Dear Joy,

Pleasing to read your mail regarding the details of life perspective.

Really, I am more than hurt. I believed him as my friend but he enjoyed destroying me in the guise of friend. I am very confused between friend as a foe or foe as a friend.

I am still surprised how a friend can destroy his friend but I saw him doing so--he claimed he was my friend and sabotaged and jeopardized my life in the veil of friendship...He wanted, i thought, me to marry his sister whom i had never seen in my life but never tried to make us meet. How can I believe that he was true to this matter and he was my good friend.

To be powerful means does not necessary to be good. He is very powerful person and he planned a grand design to make me alone in this world and hitting me, hurting me blocking me from behind the curtain===he hurt me more than i suffered.==Now i feel and experience i am alone=i am extremely hurt--it has been very difficult to live more==Do you still think he was my friend who destroyed my life for not marrying his invisible sister? I am surprised by what he is doing, if i am not wrong. What will he get by troubling me too much and tending to destroy me?

My life is full of pains and sufferings and no way to live in this world. If he will be happier and achieve success and success more when i am ruined, i pray God to trouble me much more because friend's happiness will be my pleasure

best regards with love
... ;;; ...


...ANOTHER PART...

Dear Intimate,

My happiness knew no boundaries when i got such a friend like u. The God is there from where He loves me too much. I am quite inspired by your allusion of mother's pain and love to her sons. Now, i can feel i can endure whatever pain for my mother's happiness. But I disagree with you to take revenge with my foe as a friend or friend as a foe because I am never against justice and humanity. If i have never harmed anything of anybody else, it is beyond my imagination to harm my friend and all.

However, i cannot be positive with that very being under the veil of friendship who sabotaged my life. He only believes in power and felt challenged when i believed him he would not harm me any way. i thought he would not harm me anything but he took it as my challenge boasting upon the power. You can't imagine how powerful, mischievous, cunning, shrewd, sly and tricky he is. He might be under the full of pains and it is his problem not mine but he does not have any rights to destroy my life. Do you think it is a justice to punish others for his own problem and weakness? His problem is his problem. If he wants to solve it or wants or expects some cooperation from his friends or me, he must tell me directly and propose for help. I could do any kind of help to him, if he has been simple and easy. How can i see his internal pain or problem without telling me anything? Is it my mistake not to know his problem, what do u think my friend? And now he has been continually attacking me blaming me for not helping him as friend. Can he mend broken mirror similar to the relationship? If he dares to mend the relationship, he must take initiation with correcting his past mistakes and wrong doings under the play of super power. If I hurt and destroy you, can you still take me as earlier as before, suppose, we were friends? i feel i am very simple and straightforward person with compassion.

Contrary to me, he is super-powerful and not a man of understanding humanity but only of power. He enjoys destroying others. If i can, i will never harm him because i am not like him. Ending friendship with him is enough for him as a punishment. I am not demon or devil to follow him and take revenge with such robotic hearts. One day, he will certainly realize that if he has not harmed his friend under the play of power, his friend (me) would certainly help him and hug him with love and humanity. It is not my job to make him understand me how simple kind of person i am.

However, he is almost under the line of human being and near to a mean and clever King. Do you want to know about his deceptive tricks? He hatched a plan of staying in the USA by staying in Kathmandu, changing his residential location and continuing his office by the night? And he wants to convince me that he has not done anything against me because he reportedly claims that he is not in the country or town. Can you understand now what kind of person he is? Is he true to humanity or friendship?

When I want to begin my life in new ways, he creates obstacles and obstruction everywhere. I remember his one saying to me---"...will stop your every progress and bring tsunami in your life because you (me) did not do what I (he) wanted...". Now, evaluate yourself, what kind of person he is. If he needs my help, he could propose or ask me directly and friendly and i could help him or sacrifice everything for him as part of value of friendship. I could help him anything if he had asked me directly.

Now, can you understand me what kind of person i am? How can i understand others' problems without being revealed it? I am not God to know everything about of others...

I hope u will understand me well

Love from
...;;;...


...NEXT PART...

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