A moment with Swami Ram Dev

Bishnu Prasad Aryal

Kathmandu, April 3

It was the regular day I am living in this world. But it was not the same as other days. I prepared myself to attend a meeting with Yoga Guru Swami Ram Dev, who was in Nepal for a yoga camp. He was to leave Nepal today and I left my apartment at 07:07 AM. It was told another day Swami will meet us at 7:45 at Sant Niwas, the residence of Dr Upendra Mahato, former president of Non-Resident Nepalis. I was curious to visit him and listen to his words.

However, he could not come in time as he could not avoid meeting President Dr Ram Baran Yadav before leaving Nepal. It was his urgent appointment. Before meeting President, Swami had devoted him to teach the  armed police force personnel yoga at its Headquarters. He arrived at the scheduled at about 9 AM. And he started talking to media persons. In course of talks, he said all people are different from each other but some are more different than others. "But I am unable to cure their disease of blaming others."

He felicitated the journalists wrapping with shawls for covering news about Yoga. I was one of them. It was the first time I was felicitated. I was not the only person to be hounoured. I was among all the journalists, about two dozens, who were thanked in this way. This was new experience for me that remained a moment of being myself a sage inside me spiritually. I, who belong to The Himalayan Times, did not write any word offending Swami but I cannot say about others.

He was disheartened by an article published in the Kantipur daily--"Swami is above President...". This allusion was related to the stage where Swami was on his posture at his place and President was on the other side. "I honour and respect President. It was not my fault that place was made to address people and teach them yoga. I am touched with this misinterpretation," he said.

Ram Dev Baba is really a sage and totally a humanitarian person but not a shrewd, selfish and dishonest politician. He is kind enough for humanity and dedicated to help people get rid of ailments through yoga practices. His intention to teach Patanjali Yog is crystal clear. Nobody knows mystery inside a person but an enlightened person is said to understand others. This is the problem that I don't have to solve it.

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Swami Ram Dev Yoga Camp in Kathmandu

Bishnu Prasad Aryal
Kathmandu, March 27

Yoga Science Camp is being held from March 27 to April 1 at Tundikhel of Kathmandu in Nepal. Yoga Guru Swami Ram Dev and Ayurved Acharya Balkrishna from India are teaching yoga about 40,000 people in the camp, which is operated 5 AM to 8 AM.

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Did those who killed Jesus realisze their mistake?

Bishnu Prasad Aryal
Kathmandu, Nov 29

Why did the contemporary people kill Jesus? It has just simple logic that they could not understand Jesus? It was not His mistake.

Was Jesus wrong? And they killed him brutally by torturing him excessively. His diosciple Judas, who was cunning, enjoyed killing his Guru.

For ordinary people too, this is very contemplative in present time and scenario. The vicious people trouble, torture, harm and destroy the innocent persons for nothing. I have also experienced such moments of destructive persons full of ego and stupidity with vested interests.

If Jesus was killed, what could we do in such sufferings and miseries caused by vicious persons?

Not only, Jesus, but also Krishna was killed with poisoned arrow, Buddha was fed poisonous pork, Socrates was fed poison and more. Just meditate upon the powerful people who killed innocent and genious persons in this world. Powerful people without wisdom and humanity are demons and devils.

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What I saw on the roadside

I was on the way to Old Baneshwor in Kathmandu mid-day today. As I approached street just by Thames College, I saw a man of about late 20s lying amidst garbage along the road. I neared him. He was not dead but alseep unconsciously. I guessed he was drunk enough and was a layman. But I did not have enough time to find out the truth.

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Vendors struggle hard to buy joy in Dashain

Bishnu Prasad Aryal
Kathmandu, September 18

The street vendors would be relieved from the hassles caused by the city police at least during the Dashain festival for selling goods on the streets. Despite against the traffic rules, it is a consideration for the ordinary people to earn happiness in the greatest festival of the Hindus.

"I have sighed relief at least during the Dashain as we are allowed to sell the goods on the streets for earning something to buy happiness in my family," said Leela Shrestha, 44, from Chainpur VDC-8 in Dhading district. "In other days, we were terribly troubled while selling goods on the streets," Shrestha said.

Shrestha spouse along with two sisters and three daughters have been living in a rented room in Kathmandu for more than a decade. They have maintained their livelihood and mediocre life in the expensive capital city by selling ready-made clothes on streets. They have been able to educate their children in the city from the toiling labours.

Shrestha couple said that the city police used to snatch away their clothes when they used to sell the items on the streets around Sundhara in other days. "We earn some Rs 300-400 each day," they echoed. "The consumers bargain very tightly even though we are selling the items at low price."

Consumer Ramila Devkota, who was shopping for her kids, said that the clothes sold in the streets were definitely cheaper than in the commercial houses. "However, we are accustomed to bargain tightly," she said laughing.

Another vendor Meghnath Siwakoti from Sunkhani VDC in Dolakha district has been continuing this profession for about eight years. "It is hard to celebrate the festival due to the skyrocketing price in the market," he said.

"This time, the sale is very low perhaps because of economic meltdown," said Siwakoti. "In the previous years, we used to make sale of upto Rs 5,000. However, I have hardly earned Rs 500 per day this year," he grieved.

Siwakoti, who is also the member of the Joint Business Association of National Trade, expressed qualm over the people in power doing whatever they like but only ordinary people were forced to abide by the law.

This time, the Kathmandu Metropolitan City has allowed the vendors, who number in hundreds of such sellers, to make though little money by bargaining with the tightfisted consumers. The KMC has made a routine from 1pm to 8pm to sell the goods on the streets effective from September 13 to 27. They will be permitted from 11am from September 19, which is the Ghatasthapana (First day of the festival).

"We provided them this special opportunity during the festival after the different organisations belonging to trade and business communities asked us for consideration," said DSP Dhanapati Sapkota, chief of the Implementation Division under the KMC. "We have also specially made arrangement of two places-Baghbazaar and Balkhu for selling goats. However, there is no restriction for other vendors," he added.

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Humanity Vs Beauty

Bishnu Prasad Aryal
Kathmandu, August 27

Mila Kunis, celebrity... and beauty...I don't know her at all but I chose her because her beauty enticed me a lot. It is not my fault she is beautiful but natural instinct always desires the beautiful things in the world. This is what aestheticism speaks of.

Meanwhile, I was shocked when I saw a group of children stretching palms for alms being presented by a commuter. The picture describes more than my words do. This is how a life they are spending in another part of the world.

I don't know both of them. Neither they know each other. I picked up them here as I witnessed state of miserable condition in them whereas humanity is dancing beyond their horizon. The celebrity, who is living full-privileged life, might not know anything about the children how they are suffering.

They have also beauty in them. Physical beauty is potential in them but it is a question what is barring them from getting bloomed. I see beauty in humanity.

Is beauty an antagonist against humanity or justice? Now it is your turn to unravel the layers of truth.

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Something Stressful I Have Been Feeling Now

On the way I came to see many people. Some were beggars, some were givers, some were teachers, some were business persons, some students, some were deformed and some were blessed for their beauty, many were males and many more were females. There were others too. Exactly, i don't have time to describe them in details.

I saw a man begging in his raged feat. His eyes were like craters and face was like a stone, He was bare footed and in worn clothes. A girl like a fairy gave him money. He put it in his pockets. Unfortunately, he could not see her with his eyes. In fact, there were no eye balls in the craters. I had headache by looking the different creation and situation of people on the earth. I thought it is the world of variation and diversification. Nobody is like anybody. Every thing looks unique and strange. But feelings of pains, suffering, and happiness are exactly same in each though many are in misery and some others are happy.

My headache increased immensely not because of the scenes on the streets but because of one of my classmates wrote me in disguised that I intended to steal money from his bank account. I was shocked and about to go mad as i heard such mean words. This person has been following me for 15 years from behind the curtain for rejecting his proposal of his invisible sister. I thought there are many persons better than me in this world, why he has been following me brutally. I am in gloomy mood and sad. I am extremely fed up with his behavior and spending moments and watching the world with tearful eyes.

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Too Much Injustice Upon ME

May 17, '08


An Appeal To Krishna Sharma


DEAR RESPECTED SIR,

I AM very SORRY I HAVE NEVER WRITTEN ABOUT YOUR FAMILY. i have nothing to do with your family business and where you live or stay. I just wanted to be like a friend and share your problems...if i could, i would try my best to help you and satisfy you with my behavior and sacrifice. Please never try to make me believe that you are away from Kathmandu. I humbly request you to tell me your problem (IF THERE IS) rather than telling me you are away and trying to prove that you have done good enough for everybody. i am sorry to say that i have never taken you as a friend but as a powerful classmate only, if it were it would have been already ended...it is not necessary for you to regret but i regret that i thought you were worthy of friendship...you are great and powerful..I take you as a very great and a person of an outstanding height and good status. i respect you, honor you and believe you are a good human being. however it is not necessary to threaten me for charging case...if i have harmed you and made mistakes against you i welcome you to report against harassment...it was only the matter that i wanted to correct my mistakes and to be a part of your life, as a friend and a helper if you need...i could sacrifice anything for you. What is my mistake against you that you are so angry with me? I always want to correct my mistakes and bow down on your feet as an apology for my mistakes...i really want to salute you as a superior being and powerful man. IF I AM WRONG I AM EXTREMELY SORRY FOR THIS...Behind the state of your being angry with me and staying away from me might have a serious meaning and you might have a problem which is yet to be solved...i am nobody and nothing to speak about your problem and helping you. You might not need my help. But I was only interested in humanity and wanted to make efforts for the sake of well wishers like you. Thinking that nothing will be impossible to solve if it is dealt with friendly and humanely. I am always in favor of your happiness, success and progress...I really wanted to improve worsened relationship between you and me with humanity and mutual understanding. i ASSURE YOU THAT There is nothing that you cannot get from me....you can get whatever you like if i have something worth for you...i am extremely sorry for my bitter words...I NEVER WANT TO ANNOY YOU AND MAKE YOU UNHAPPY...I REALLY WANTED A HELP FROM YOU AND TRYING TO WRITE YOU...IF YOU NEVER WANT TO HELP ME, IT'S OK , WHAT CAN I DO FOR THIS COMPLICATED SITUATION?

Rude and ugly
mad and insane

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Brutality and Cruelty Is Thy Name

May 08, '08


A Letter To KP SHARMA


Dear Respected Sir,

I am extremely sorry for my rude and offensive language. These are my words of apologizing for my mistakes just as an acquainted person but not as an intimate friend. i seem to be nobody and nothing for the rest of the world. I sometimes express words and anger about you, it does not mean that i disrespect you but because I am mad and insane person who doesn't know to express sweet, polite, civilized and cultured language. I am an ordinary and simple person. I like to be direct, open and simplistic as news articles are written. I express what i feel, see, experience and know...it may be truth or false, right or wrong whatever it is. All these are the bi-products and consequences of injustice upon me. However, i feel I am ruined and deserted person. I am under acute pains and suffering caused by troubles and harms by unknown persons from behind the curtain...i am so dull that i don't know the reason why they are against me...it seems that the whole world is against me. I express offensive and rude language about others when i am hurt. My life is full of wounds and injuries. I am unable to tolerate these for the longer time. When others touch or poke my wounds, i experience extreme pains and suffering...it makes me bleeding the heart....all those words expressed in pains and suffering reveal my painful condition and those words may be bitter and harsh for others though i never intend to do so; and my deeds and actions have never violated others' human rights. Expression of those words is only the revelation and catharsis of my pains and suffering. I request others not to take it otherwise. If others don't touch me, i will be silent and express no words against others. I plead YOU to forgive me taking me as silly and crazy person. Others who doesn't understand my pains might be angry with me and may take revenge to sabotage and jeopardize my life for those words. However, whatever i speak, I am not a person to harm others...i am never against justice, humanity and human rights. I feel some people inclining to evil forces from behind the curtain have blocked me for entertaining my rights, they seem to be the bosses of injustice, inhumanity and cruelty against human rights. I feel i can live no more because of such pains...it is better for me to die rather than to face the unwanted and unjust oppression, pains, troubles, harms and sad moments. I expect nothing from you but only to forgive me, to help me live a peaceful life and allow me to entertain the human rights. If all the pains and sufferings persist or continue taking over me, i will contemplate to embrace death. My life is ending and finishing for the betterment of my soul. Once again, I apologize for my stupid and nonsense words and savage behavior...i WISH ALL OF YOUR LIVES BE HAPPY AND SUCCESSFUL.& YOUR SISTER'S LIFE BE HAPPIEST AND MOST SUCCESSFUL.

--
Victimized unluckily
ugly and stupid fellow

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It Is Hard to Believe but It Is Hard Truth

Jul 14, '08


: I have never seen such a brutal person in this world


It has not been one year, neither it has been two years, nor it has been five years, nor it has been 10 years. It has been 15 years, a team of KP [Krishna] Sharma has been following me from behind the curtain. It is too much. It is to say better that it is more than enough. He is troubling me unnecessarily, torturing me inhumanely. He seems to be very inhumane, vicious and unjust to me.

It seems it is such a fiction or a story which they can believe hardly. they who can not understand may think I have gone mad or crazy. Neither I am crazy nor the story is fantasy. This is the true story that I beheld and experienced in my life...either you believe it or not.

The only thing I did is I wanted to live in my own way and to be single rather than living with a bad girl as a life partner. He is too angry with me because i did not marry his sister whom I have never seen in this life. I cannot say how she is, good or bad. Relationship is made friendly, not brutally...The only problem with him is he has a family problem and marrying off his sister. If he has problem, he must tell and ask for help. Nobody will understand his problem without being told.

He warned me to destroy, finish, and ruin my life and block my each and every progress if I did not marry his sister. I have taken nothing from him nor I have harmed anybody in this life. However, he is punishing me for his family problem. If nobody is likely to accept his sister, it is not my mistake. The only ego he lives up is he is a journalist and has a big link and connection with each and every people. He can do anything whatever he likes. However, one is too powerful, one has any weakness in one's life. But he never admits his weakness. He is the lord of evilness and has kept on harming me continually for not marrying his invisible sister.

It is shocking that he has pretended that he is in the USA but staying in Kathmandu and he tends to sabotage and jeopardize my life from behind the curtain claiming that he has done nothing against me. He suggests me visiting psychiatrist for speaking truth. However, I would like to say that he, who claims being away by staying in Kathmandu, is sick and needs to consult the psychiatrist. He seems not to be in normal condition. He speaks false and claiming that he is speaking truth. It may be the psychiatric problem but I don't know what this actually is.

I have suffered too much, experiencing pains and tortures though i have not other problems. Nowadays, I am contemplating suicide rather to tolerate such injustice and live a miserable life. No one may believe in how he is following me and hurting and harming me from behind the curtain. I pary God for granting me death at this moment.

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GOD, Will YOU Hear my Voice?

Jun 29, '08


My Cry for the Supreme Creator/God!


When I weep, they all enjoy,
While I suffer pains, they laugh,
As I feel sad, they become happy,

When I fail in my work, they celebrate,
While I attempt for good, they envy
And resort to foil all at any cost,
As I never harm anybody, they start attacking me,

When I try to entertain my individual rights,
They cut my wings and block my ways,
While I love them, they scorn me,
As I believe them as friends, they turn to be foe and enemy,

When I see all equal, they treat me inhumanly,
While I speak of justice, they commit injustice upon me,
As I argue my philosophy, they label me as impractical
And egotist,

When I speak truth, they term it as fiction
And call me mad and insane, they become fire of anger,
While I express my pains and miseries for catharsis,
They are angry with me and blame me for insulting them,
I always respect them, they insult and hurt me enough,
As I try to dance and celebrate my life, they detonate bomb on me.

So I want to reveal the symbol of THEY,
They is not other than KP Sharma.

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Ego is Quest for Self

Mar 30, '08


Do you Have Ego Problem?


Yes, I have. Don't worry about it. Everybody has ego problem to some extent. It is very important to understand oneself, level of consciousness and their activities. Ego is not bad but super ego may be dangerous. Ego and freedom, I think, are two sides of a coin. If you go into the deeper level, they both are one. Super ego may be destructive and harmful to others, and ego is good for human being if it is well understood. Ego is the best or in other words it is the replica of self esteem whereas it does not harm and hurt others and it doesn't like to be hurt or harmed. This level of conscious of ego is the best thing, I have experienced it. Ego is the super freedom emanated from the state of liberty. I have such kind of ego which is not harmful, never disrespects others but does not care others too, it is my freedom. I am proud of my ego which never intends to harm and hurt others. No man can remain alive ego that is the force or energy for struggle, living and justice.

However, I have witnessed a man with obsessive super ego of position and power. His name is Govinda Sharma, but he lacks the every traits of Lord Krishna, teacher of laughing religion and ecstasy with no anxieties and unconsciousness. I saw Govinda very rude, inhumane and sense of evilness. He used to boast upon his power and position. I saw one of his classmate, named Vishnu Poduwal, who was very simple, innocent and an ordinary fellow with hardworking zeal, sense of humanity and justice, and selfless freedom. He did not like to dishonor others and wanted to live in his own way. he was carefree person like an enlightened philosopher. Many people fail to understand such people and they think such persons are very egoist. But the reality is opposite. They seem egoist, however, they are proud of existence and their freedom and justice. Most of the people who are unconscious and are full of meanness and superego see others with their own ego, they fail to understand others due to the lack of consciousness and eyes of justice.

It is an irony Govinda wanted to show and prove how powerful he is with his simple and innocent fellow. Govinda went on harming, torturing and troubling him for not fulfilling Govinda's mean demand related to his family problem. Govinda hammered on Vishnu for his life long and almost destroyed. He became more cruel, severe and robotic and Vishnu never surrendered to him. This continued till his death. Vishnu was clear and determined that he would accept death or ready to die but not to kneel down under Govinda's feet to solve Govinda's problem. Govinda claimed that Vishnu is too egoist and Vishnu realized that Govinda is not a human being. Govinda went on exhibiting his power of position and misuse of the power against humanity. He even never felt that his weakness and problems were being unveiled day by day but never realized his mistakes. Govinda was never ready to accept his weakness and ask Vishnu for help with mutual understanding and respecting humanity. This trend has been going on for ages and ages, and will reamin until the existence will exist on the universe.

Therefore, now you can examine the egos of Govinda and Vishnu. Can you tell me that having ego is wrong or not? Or who is right in the sense of humanity and freedom? Don't worry about it as ego is freedom, force for existence and energy or backbone of progress in life if it does not lead to catastrophe and destruction?

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Who Is Greater Between Them?

Feb 27, '08


A Dispute Between the Great and the Mean


MEAN: Please, don't intervene into my private life. I am about to go mad. Try never to interrupt my way of life. Let me live in peace and in my own way.

GREAT: Coward! ......[Very Vulgar Words]! Bastard! I'LL KILL YOU!

MEAN: Why are you angry with me? I have never harmed anybody in my life and never intend to.

GREAT: Sly guy! Limitless selfish! You will repent on it.

MEAN: What is your problem? Tell me directly as friend. I am not your enemy.

GREAT: I don't have any problems. Even if I have, I'll solve them by myself. Because I am very powerful and clever person. Do you want to see my power and to know how many contacts I have?

MEAN: Then, why are you torturing me a lot?

GREAT: I'll put full stop or an end to your success and progress if you leave my given job to you.

MEAN: Any problem can be solved if it is shared with each other and if you believe in friendship.

GREAT: You deceived me. There is sacrifice in friendship. You failed to understand it. My bosses say I am the great person.

MEAN: What do you want from me? I could not understand your problem. I'm not God to understand everything without being told it. Be transparent. Let's discuss the matter.

GREAT: I'll give you job and will you ...?

MEAN: One of your friend told me that you want to marry off your sister.

GREAT: Rude! Wild! You are not of my height and prestige. I regret of having friendship with you.

MEAN: I am ready to accept anything you propose. It is my responsibility to help you even if there is family problem.

GREAT: My sister is already married. You, mean! God bless you to lead a life without dreaming of having a wife in this life.

MEAN: You seem to be man of injustice, confusion and problems. I'm unable to understand you.

GREAT: You're in our grip or under the fist like a fly captured. I'm in the government media. I've connections and links with powerful persons and everywhere.I can block your paths of life. You will repent on it and live under pain and suffering or in hell. I can destroy your life. I'll bring tsunami into your life.

MEAN: Your family problem is yours. But you became my problem of life.I would honor and respect you, unless you troubled and harmed me. And I could help you and compromise for anything.

GREAT: I'll trouble, torture, and harm you on the ways sending vicious persons to beat you up psychologically. Can you tackle all the troubles and tortures I will attack on you. I'll compel you to take shelter in an ASYLUM.

MEAN: I don't need your given job. If you believe me I am determined to get married with your sister without any condition.

GREAT: I may spit on your mouth if you talk about my sister.

MEAN: It is better to die or to end any kind of relationships between you and me and say GOODBYE FOREVER.

GREAT: I'll continually jeopardize and sabotage your plans and life by following everywhere you head until you die. Even I can influence and dwarf your numbers achieved in the university examinations. Understand?

MEAN: I've decided to quit your given job and remain away from you. Give your sister to the job or anybody else OR give the job to your sister or anybody else. I would be extremely happy to attend your sister's marriage ceremony if you invite me.

GREAT: I'll pretend that I've gone to the USA but will remain underground here and I'll resort to finish your life from behind the curtain. OK!

MEAN: THANKS A LOT! YOU ARE REALLY the GREAT! I'm sorry for all of my mistakes.

The MEAN MAN thought and believed that anybody would marry his sister whom he has never seen in his life because the GREAT MAN could manage anything in this world. However, the GREAT is still following the MEAN and harming everything whatever the latter plans to do. The secrecy or hidden truth, the MEAN IMAGINES, is that nobody in this world is likely to accept the GREAT's sister.

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Relationship is Made of only Two Sides

Feb 06, '08


Relationship is Made of only Two Sides


There were some people debating on relationship and its value.

I was witnessing the event and captured the dialogues in such a way.

First: Sometimes relationship is made of by force and power.

Second: May be. But I think relationship is a matter of compromising with the problems.

Third: No. It is the pure spiritual and divine matter between or among the beings.

Fourth: It is not possible with power and job but possible with love and humanity. It is not made of single party or side.

Fifth: I have a problem that I want to marry off my sister to a being.

Sixth: It is better to give your sister to a bulldog if you fail to understand the humanity.

Seventh: I also want to marry a dog girl because I am unable to understand another person.

First: Then, both of you should compromise ultimately.

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I Have Fallen in Love with Silence

Jun 05, '07


I Have Fallen in Love with Silence


Dear Friends,
I am extremely sorry for that I am tired of writing scraps and giving hits to my lovely friends. Therefore, I have decided to remain silence for a period but i cannot say that when this silence will be broken. Please, be patient if you all really love me as a friend. I have fallen into a grave concern of pains in my life...Forgive me for not writing any response to my dear friends...My message is silence:Silence is the symbol of sacred and sublime love...

love from
...prasad...

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A Sublime Moment of Love with an Stranger

May 12, '07


A Sublime Moment of Love with an Stranger


Just some hours ago, i caught a bus bound to Kathmandu from a terai district of Nepal. Many buses were traveling to Kathmandu like many people are visiting this place. I chose a bus in a blue color, which attracted me more not because there were acquainted faces in the bus but because my mood always goes with spiritual world.

It was only a co-incidence. I entered the bus. There was only one seat lying vacant at the last back row of the seats. I took my seat right behind the seats of two ladies.

It is not better to disclose my inner feelings about other people, specially about females. But what i am doing is only the spontaneous flowing of a beautiful moment in course of my journey to Kathmandu, the capital city of Nepal.

Others might think that I always like to write about females. Yes, it is true that females are comparatively superior being in the universe of creation, so I choose to write about them.

One of my hands touched hair of one lady in front of me. Her hair was so smooth, so silky and so sweet as if it was the butter cream pasted in a cake. She turned behind. i was afraid of her and my innocent actions of my fingers. I thought, "I am sorry for it."

But she smiled in a way that she was my acquainted friend. Her smile was like a rainbow on the Autumn evening. She was in red, blue, pink and yellow colored dress. There was a petal of rose flower on her face, fragrance of lily and beauty of innocent merry gold. "Mom, will you taste this piece of snack," she said to the woman beside her. They were talking about Butwal, her brother who is a school student and the fare of bus that was illogical for them.

Unknowingly, my fingers pushed her hair again. I was terribly afraid of her. And she told me, "I am sorry." I said nothing because i don't like to be more formal.

Again, i touched her hands and she did not object. She could not stay unmoved. She was turning left and right, and turning back to me with her hands on top of seat behind her. I touched her fingers, which were like tulip tenders. i caught her one of fingers and she was not angry with me but playful to the situation. She winked her eyes and told me, "Will you like this?" She pointed to the lines written on the window screen of the bus. There was written--YOU ARE THE FAIRY OF BEYOND HORIZON. "It's nice," I said. She smiled.

The bus was still running. We were closer and closer being playful with friendly spirit and impulse of emotions. We traveled for four hours with very joyful moments. Those were few moments among many delightful moments we spent together on the bus. I had potato chips on the bus and she took instant noodles and biscuit. i offered her my chips. She said, "No, thanks!"

Just after we finished eating snacks, she said to me, "You are so greedy. You ate alone." I smiled and she laughed her belly.

I said, "I am getting down at the next stop."
She said, "Bye!" I said, "Tata!"

Just before getting departed, she told me her name. "I am Ayushma Poudel (Chhetry)." My father is Chhetry and Mom is also so. But my grandmother is Bramhin. "I am four year old and i read in Nursery," she told me in a jolly mood with Nightingale voice and oceanic eyes.

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A Letter to a Disguised Friend

May 12, '07


A Letter to a Disguised Friend


Dear Joy,

Hug with love of friendship!

I am very much disappointed and it has been very difficult for me to endure pains caused by the very person from behind the curtain.

I think he has unnecessarily harmed me in my life. I thought and believed he would not harmed me anything because i have never harmed anybody nor deceived anybody else. I expressed, "He would do nothing for me as i have not harmed anything of him." But he felt challenged from my simple and plain statement emanated from my heart of belief. It is an irony he took it otherwise. He never told me his problem seriously nor directly nor friendly but blamed me for deceiving him. I have experienced extreme condition of injustice. I requested him through mail to forgive me as a friend if i had made any mistakes in my life. I was ready to sacrifice everything for him if he had told me directly.

I am terribly victimized by the misunderstanding of him and getting punished for his problems. He is too much angry with me but never tells me what his problem is. I am shocked from it. He is too powerful, big, greater and influential, who does not need any of my helps. I have never expected anything from him, neither his money nor his power to get job for me nor his sister to live with. I wish he could have relationship of his sister with bigger, richer, greater, influential, better, more handsome, social, cultured and civilized person. I believe he will get whatever he desires and wants. i am nobody and nothing for him. However, i expect from him only not to obstruct, hinder or ill-recommend me and my attempts to live in my own ways. It will be enough for me to live.

I am not a person to harm others. If i cannot live in peace, i can commit suicide but i am always against fighting the friends. Whatever he has done wrong with me, i forgive him but never go against him. I want to be only true human being but not the devil.

What would you do if you were my friend-turned-foe?

best regards
...prasad...

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Speechless Moment: A Sense of Isolation

Apr 19, '07


Speechless Moment: A Sense of Isolation


I said, "Bye".
She said, "OK".
Then we departed for our destinations. She headed towards south and I got up a bus traveling east. We were at the junction of Butwal, business city of central Nepal about two couple of days ago. People were coming and going to their directions from the crossroad.

It seemed the sun was angry with the people who were unaware of scorching heat. It was not too hot but the temperature was above 35 degree Celsius. I was on the road, the road of my destination and destiny.

It looked the trees were running. The bus was full of sounds playing music. In fact, the bus was running and my mind inside the bus was running back to the history of few hours ago.

The place from where I caught the bus was hilly, scenery and fascinatingly serene. The wind was blowing mildly. people were on the opposite and supportive directions respectively. I entered into the bus and looked for a vacant seat. All the front seats were not empty. I went to the behind seats. There was an empty seat along with a girl, who was looking downside. I could not see her face. But her dress was neat and pink color with embroidery. I took the vacant seat.

The bus was moving and heading to its destination. I was silent and she was also silent. I wanted to know about her because I thought we were together by the seats. I wanted to ask, "Sister, can we introduce each other? Where are you going?" But, I pondered upon my thinking and said without uttering voice, "It will be meaner to ask anything about an unknown lady. Why should I ask her for anything when we only met on the bus?" I sometimes peered and she also did so but not at a time.

I remembered one of my friend-turned-foe who might assume that I was so rude, savage, and wild while I was afraid of talking to a human being friendly traveling together. I thought, "It's not necessary to be so because I believe in humanity. If she falls under any problems, I am ready to help her." However, there was not such a coincidence.

She said nothing to me and I was similar to her. More than three hours passed in the same manner. The bus arrived at the junction from where we departed.
Before getting down from the bus, she asked me, "Where are you getting down?"
"At the junction," I said.
"I am too at the same place," she said. "I am going to visit my sister's home but I am not familiar with this place."
"Let's go together to the cross road, and phone your sister to receive you," I said to her.
She phoned her sister and found she was not at home. I came to know from hearing her that her nephew or niece received the phone. They were small and could not take her to their home, she said. "Can you help me to reach there?"

We went at the crossroad and stopped a bus and i told the bus helper to help her getting down by the F.M. station of the town. The helper said, "It is my pleasure to do so. Some people don't say as clearly as you said and later complain us."

Though I am strong feminist, I always hesitate to communicate frankly because I think, "People will take me as a lusty man if I talk or speak to the opposite sexes." However, there was a spiritual communication between us that made us pleasant.

Neither she asked my name nor I asked her name. The traveling is still to continue but it is not certain whether we will meet again or not. "I don't expect to meet her again," I believe.

[This is an allusion to my friend's sister dedicated to Him.]

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A Pretty Prelude to A Friend-Turned-Foe

Apr 11, '07




A pretty song is to know when you are in serious problem,
Choose one of your simple friend who can help you for good,
And start troubling him excessively and become his acute problem,
Then, wait for acceptance from him under immense pressured mood.

Because mental or physical torture may not be crime for them,
Who think power of physics is the entire existence of friendship.
Creating a give-and-take situation would not mean business,
No wonder if they craft a design of you help us and get rid of problem.

Friendship will no more stand a business term to deal with give-and-take,
Only giving from both sides exists as a true and humanitarian relationship.
Give alm of either life or any help to their friend for love as beggar or sage,
It is not love to think of taking back in return to given alms or love.

Therefore, my friends are my love, life, inspiration and support,
But they are not like me as I believe in love of humanity and friendship.
My friends turned to be like foes in a war for colonization of friendship,
However, I am not their enemy but they are not like me as comfort.

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I'm Hurt more than Enough!

Apr 05, '07





It has been very difficult for me today--
i am hurt and serious more than a grave
because i could not love myself
Neither i could love others
It is my fate
Believe it or not
It depends on u

But
unknown persons may be
liars and cheaters
Why to believe them ?

But u can feel it
if u have sense of humanity
love and friendship .

Others say such is life
Take it easy,
I'm full of compassion,
I can't believe them,
Because I'm myself
And my feelings are not yours.

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