A moment with Swami Ram Dev

Bishnu Prasad Aryal

Kathmandu, April 3

It was the regular day I am living in this world. But it was not the same as other days. I prepared myself to attend a meeting with Yoga Guru Swami Ram Dev, who was in Nepal for a yoga camp. He was to leave Nepal today and I left my apartment at 07:07 AM. It was told another day Swami will meet us at 7:45 at Sant Niwas, the residence of Dr Upendra Mahato, former president of Non-Resident Nepalis. I was curious to visit him and listen to his words.

However, he could not come in time as he could not avoid meeting President Dr Ram Baran Yadav before leaving Nepal. It was his urgent appointment. Before meeting President, Swami had devoted him to teach the  armed police force personnel yoga at its Headquarters. He arrived at the scheduled at about 9 AM. And he started talking to media persons. In course of talks, he said all people are different from each other but some are more different than others. "But I am unable to cure their disease of blaming others."

He felicitated the journalists wrapping with shawls for covering news about Yoga. I was one of them. It was the first time I was felicitated. I was not the only person to be hounoured. I was among all the journalists, about two dozens, who were thanked in this way. This was new experience for me that remained a moment of being myself a sage inside me spiritually. I, who belong to The Himalayan Times, did not write any word offending Swami but I cannot say about others.

He was disheartened by an article published in the Kantipur daily--"Swami is above President...". This allusion was related to the stage where Swami was on his posture at his place and President was on the other side. "I honour and respect President. It was not my fault that place was made to address people and teach them yoga. I am touched with this misinterpretation," he said.

Ram Dev Baba is really a sage and totally a humanitarian person but not a shrewd, selfish and dishonest politician. He is kind enough for humanity and dedicated to help people get rid of ailments through yoga practices. His intention to teach Patanjali Yog is crystal clear. Nobody knows mystery inside a person but an enlightened person is said to understand others. This is the problem that I don't have to solve it.

Read More

Did those who killed Jesus realisze their mistake?

Bishnu Prasad Aryal
Kathmandu, Nov 29

Why did the contemporary people kill Jesus? It has just simple logic that they could not understand Jesus? It was not His mistake.

Was Jesus wrong? And they killed him brutally by torturing him excessively. His diosciple Judas, who was cunning, enjoyed killing his Guru.

For ordinary people too, this is very contemplative in present time and scenario. The vicious people trouble, torture, harm and destroy the innocent persons for nothing. I have also experienced such moments of destructive persons full of ego and stupidity with vested interests.

If Jesus was killed, what could we do in such sufferings and miseries caused by vicious persons?

Not only, Jesus, but also Krishna was killed with poisoned arrow, Buddha was fed poisonous pork, Socrates was fed poison and more. Just meditate upon the powerful people who killed innocent and genious persons in this world. Powerful people without wisdom and humanity are demons and devils.

Read More

I can't change my inborn nature

Bishnu Prasad Aryal

A tiger, which is very beautiful and powerful animal, lives on other animals. It kills them and has their flesh for its livelihood. It does not farm the animals but hunts them in its residential area when it is hungry. If it is not full of appetite, it never kills and harms others.

An interesting thing to say is that it never eats grass how hungry it is. It will die of hunger but never eats plants and grass. It is its inborn nature.

Similarly, someone is born with special character. One is born to be a scientist, a politician, doctor, poet, writer, painter, farmer, philosopher and so on. However, I have witnessed a different instance in my life.

A powerful but a bad person, who has been following me since long, is always hatching conspiracy against me, torturing and harming me for his own family problem. Can't I get to live freely without harming and hurting anybody else in this world? I am unable to telerate his mean behaviours. A poet or philosopher can't be transformed into a scientist by beating and hitting whether physically or psychologically.

Let a person be as one was born for what. It is crime to forcefully attempt to change a poet or philosopher into a scientist. Every one is born with different nature. We should not make anyone like you...as every body is different and unique. Learn to understand for what one is born to be. I was born with flavour of philosophy. I am different from others. And I will die but cannot turn into an illogical and unreasonable person.

One has the rights to celebrate one's life in own way without harming and hurting others. If the wings of a bird are cut, it can't fly anymore. Someone plucked all the feathers of my wings and tells me to fly in my own way. Is it possible to fly playfully?

Read More

Where and when do my wounds ache?

It is simple the world is full of varieties and mutiplicity. The plants, trees, nonliving things, animals, human beings, air, soil, stone and etc etc.

The science believes in matter and body that is a combination of chemicals. The people who have faith in spirituality believe and see soul in even nonliving things. They think everything is changing and they are also dying in course of time.

The material people simply analysis that birth, death and life are products of matter and chemicals, and they do not exist beyond death. Hoever, spiritual people believe in eternity and it never ends, remains existing in the universe in any form and goes on and goes on.

I cannot say who is wrong or right but I feel ached when others beat me. I cannot tolerate as they torture and trouble me. I feel sad while they hurt me. I feel destroyed when they damage my toys with who I enjoy playing and spending life like a child. I feel shattered when they destruct and devastate my works and plans of life for their own problems.

I feel so and so because I am also a human being. Other living beings might feel similiar to me whether they speak or not. I can speak in my language...it may be that plants, insects, and animals also express their griefs and pains but we are not able to understand their language and feelings.

So I cannot say when and where my wounds ache...never ask me again about it after you axe, hammer, beat, cut, bite, hurt and destroy me...because let me live in my own way in pains and tears, which please me and nurture my rights and freedom to live without harming and hurting others.

Read More

I'm upset due to psychological torture

I feel nausea, my head seems to be heavy, have a headache. Simply, I can't put blame on others but there will be injustice if I don't reveal the fact that someone is still troubling and harming me from behind the curtain.

This is still a mystery for why this guy is following me throughout my whole life. Either, I must be sick, I must be in hallucination or in confusion or in illusion or speaking truth. I sometimes feel that whether I am mad to suspect the same person for destroying me.

No,I have realised many times that I am interfered or intervened into my personal issues, my liberty and freedom to live in my own way without harming and hurting others. I feel I am deprived of my individual rights to choose a way of life, work in my way and die in my carefree style.

I am suffering from other's problem. A person, who thinks himself superior, great and gentleman, has offended me for his own family problem. If I speak something about him and his action, he will torture me psychologically more than I am hurt. Neither I can remain silence nor can surrender to such a vicious person. So I am too upset now.

Read More

I like to get rid of life

I know and feel life is very valuable, which provides an opportunity to expreience the world where different people and phenomena keep on dancing in tune with nature. Their activities make me amaze. I want to know more and taste the different flavours available in the existence.

However, I sometimes fall depressed when I am too much troubled and suffer others problems and become measurable. I think it is better to die than got suffered for nothing wrong I have done.

Many people, I came to see, in this world do not deserve soul of a human being. They enjoy torturing others but never like themselves to be tortured. I hate those people who trouble others because of their own family or personal problem.

That is why I like to get rid of this life as soon as possible.

Read More

My First Heli-Flying with CanadianTV Journalists

It was 3pm on November 2, I was busy accompanying with Canadian Kevin James Fox, Damon Joseph and Taiwanese Chunyi Lin from New York in Kathmandu. They were a team from Karma Trekkers TV Show aired on different TV channles in about 45 countries. I shared my ideas of most important historical and cultural places in Kathmandu. I was a part of their team just only in Kathmandu. I was along with them in Kathmandu, Patan, Bhaktapur, Pokhara and Kavre, which were fascinating places for cultural heritages and natural beauties. It was one day before their departure for Canada after staying here in Nepal for eight days.

We together headed towards the domestic section of Tribhuvan International Airport in Kathmandu. I made all the arrangements of flying in the helicopter around the Kathmandu Valley. We boarded on the Fishtail Air helicopter. The pilot flew over the concrete jungles in Kathmandu. The helicopter flew over magnificent Bhaktapur, Patan, Swambhunath and Pashupatinath Temple. Flying in helicopter, I felt, was less comfortable than the planes. However, it was exciting. Though it was too noisy and hot inside the heli-cab, I experienced very new moments of life.

It looks very wonderful as we see the things from above. We never felt and touch as we tread on the treasures but the sense of looking the same phenomena from above all earthly beings, I belive, is most enchanting and enlightening phenomenon for our spiritual eyes. ...

Read More

An Interview with Another Part of Me

Nothing is impossible for him. Working on hard times with difficulty, a challenge makes him feel happy rather than become disappointed by the problem. Experiencing the new moments of not trodden path becomes his way of life. He is no more than an ordinary fellow who aspires to be one of the simplest persons in the world.

He does not know whether he will succeed or not. But he certainly realizes that it is not an easy job to reach there as he starts walking on hard rocks. Reaching to a targeted point is very different from heading towards the field which is both opportunity and challenge at a time. He believes and knows from his conscience man is different from other beings not just because of the appearance but because of the nature that rows dream, plan, hard work and perfection towards what he does meditatively. They who do not understand him or such traits of human being may mistake him as egotism but it is not hard for him.

He dreamed a lot, tried hard and reached nowhere…He every time turns to be complicated as he pounds to be simpler. He called me, I came, I saw him and found frolicking psychologically to scale success. I questioned myself and HE within me answered. Some of the extracts are as following:

Me: How did you come to this world?

HE: Once upon a time I was in the universe touching everything happily. As my father fell in love with my mom one night, I was confined to a subject and she had me. It was not my desire to come here but my parents' desire to understand each other. They also did not plan to have me. It was just an accident.

Me: Are you sure about it or pessimistic about life?

HE: Yes. I am absolutely sure that life is not as one imagines to be and it goes as it flows in its current but dream can lead one to a new path. Imagination and dream are quite different phenomena. One can imagine anything but shaped vision is dream.

Me: Are you dreaming or imagining now?

HE: I am doing both as one cannot be separated from each other. The difference is only that which is dominant.

Me: What kind of philosophy is this?

HE: Which one? That you failed to understand or others misunderstand.

Me: About love and marriage?

He: sex and complimentary part of life or churning out of nothing…

Read More

Strange Behaviour of a Miniature Lion

This is world of civilization. Activities of human being define how cultured a person is. One who cannot keep neat and clean is rated savage and wild. People boast upon our knowledge and their civilization among all the animals on the earth. Obviously, human being is the most intellectual animal among them.

Can you accept that other animals imitate the activities of human being to show them civilized? Human beings have learned a lot from animals and nature in course of time and civilization.

I am astonished by the activities of a mouse in my house. I was still confused that it is coincidence or deliberate action. There is nothing edible in my bathroom. A mouse regularly sneaks into my bathroom and excrete its stool on the the outlets of it.

Last week, i peeked into the bathroom for examining the secret action of a mouse. It entered into the bathroom and went to the water out let hole. Amazingly, it evacuated its bowels and went out.

Now, I am certain that a wild mouse is also learning how to keep clean house of a man. When I recall this incident, I always smile at cats for chasing a mouse.

And now animals have also started copying and learning from human beings.

Read More

Something Stressful I Have Been Feeling Now

On the way I came to see many people. Some were beggars, some were givers, some were teachers, some were business persons, some students, some were deformed and some were blessed for their beauty, many were males and many more were females. There were others too. Exactly, i don't have time to describe them in details.

I saw a man begging in his raged feat. His eyes were like craters and face was like a stone, He was bare footed and in worn clothes. A girl like a fairy gave him money. He put it in his pockets. Unfortunately, he could not see her with his eyes. In fact, there were no eye balls in the craters. I had headache by looking the different creation and situation of people on the earth. I thought it is the world of variation and diversification. Nobody is like anybody. Every thing looks unique and strange. But feelings of pains, suffering, and happiness are exactly same in each though many are in misery and some others are happy.

My headache increased immensely not because of the scenes on the streets but because of one of my classmates wrote me in disguised that I intended to steal money from his bank account. I was shocked and about to go mad as i heard such mean words. This person has been following me for 15 years from behind the curtain for rejecting his proposal of his invisible sister. I thought there are many persons better than me in this world, why he has been following me brutally. I am in gloomy mood and sad. I am extremely fed up with his behavior and spending moments and watching the world with tearful eyes.

Read More

Too Much Injustice Upon ME

May 17, '08


An Appeal To Krishna Sharma


DEAR RESPECTED SIR,

I AM very SORRY I HAVE NEVER WRITTEN ABOUT YOUR FAMILY. i have nothing to do with your family business and where you live or stay. I just wanted to be like a friend and share your problems...if i could, i would try my best to help you and satisfy you with my behavior and sacrifice. Please never try to make me believe that you are away from Kathmandu. I humbly request you to tell me your problem (IF THERE IS) rather than telling me you are away and trying to prove that you have done good enough for everybody. i am sorry to say that i have never taken you as a friend but as a powerful classmate only, if it were it would have been already ended...it is not necessary for you to regret but i regret that i thought you were worthy of friendship...you are great and powerful..I take you as a very great and a person of an outstanding height and good status. i respect you, honor you and believe you are a good human being. however it is not necessary to threaten me for charging case...if i have harmed you and made mistakes against you i welcome you to report against harassment...it was only the matter that i wanted to correct my mistakes and to be a part of your life, as a friend and a helper if you need...i could sacrifice anything for you. What is my mistake against you that you are so angry with me? I always want to correct my mistakes and bow down on your feet as an apology for my mistakes...i really want to salute you as a superior being and powerful man. IF I AM WRONG I AM EXTREMELY SORRY FOR THIS...Behind the state of your being angry with me and staying away from me might have a serious meaning and you might have a problem which is yet to be solved...i am nobody and nothing to speak about your problem and helping you. You might not need my help. But I was only interested in humanity and wanted to make efforts for the sake of well wishers like you. Thinking that nothing will be impossible to solve if it is dealt with friendly and humanely. I am always in favor of your happiness, success and progress...I really wanted to improve worsened relationship between you and me with humanity and mutual understanding. i ASSURE YOU THAT There is nothing that you cannot get from me....you can get whatever you like if i have something worth for you...i am extremely sorry for my bitter words...I NEVER WANT TO ANNOY YOU AND MAKE YOU UNHAPPY...I REALLY WANTED A HELP FROM YOU AND TRYING TO WRITE YOU...IF YOU NEVER WANT TO HELP ME, IT'S OK , WHAT CAN I DO FOR THIS COMPLICATED SITUATION?

Rude and ugly
mad and insane

Read More

Brutality and Cruelty Is Thy Name

May 08, '08


A Letter To KP SHARMA


Dear Respected Sir,

I am extremely sorry for my rude and offensive language. These are my words of apologizing for my mistakes just as an acquainted person but not as an intimate friend. i seem to be nobody and nothing for the rest of the world. I sometimes express words and anger about you, it does not mean that i disrespect you but because I am mad and insane person who doesn't know to express sweet, polite, civilized and cultured language. I am an ordinary and simple person. I like to be direct, open and simplistic as news articles are written. I express what i feel, see, experience and know...it may be truth or false, right or wrong whatever it is. All these are the bi-products and consequences of injustice upon me. However, i feel I am ruined and deserted person. I am under acute pains and suffering caused by troubles and harms by unknown persons from behind the curtain...i am so dull that i don't know the reason why they are against me...it seems that the whole world is against me. I express offensive and rude language about others when i am hurt. My life is full of wounds and injuries. I am unable to tolerate these for the longer time. When others touch or poke my wounds, i experience extreme pains and suffering...it makes me bleeding the heart....all those words expressed in pains and suffering reveal my painful condition and those words may be bitter and harsh for others though i never intend to do so; and my deeds and actions have never violated others' human rights. Expression of those words is only the revelation and catharsis of my pains and suffering. I request others not to take it otherwise. If others don't touch me, i will be silent and express no words against others. I plead YOU to forgive me taking me as silly and crazy person. Others who doesn't understand my pains might be angry with me and may take revenge to sabotage and jeopardize my life for those words. However, whatever i speak, I am not a person to harm others...i am never against justice, humanity and human rights. I feel some people inclining to evil forces from behind the curtain have blocked me for entertaining my rights, they seem to be the bosses of injustice, inhumanity and cruelty against human rights. I feel i can live no more because of such pains...it is better for me to die rather than to face the unwanted and unjust oppression, pains, troubles, harms and sad moments. I expect nothing from you but only to forgive me, to help me live a peaceful life and allow me to entertain the human rights. If all the pains and sufferings persist or continue taking over me, i will contemplate to embrace death. My life is ending and finishing for the betterment of my soul. Once again, I apologize for my stupid and nonsense words and savage behavior...i WISH ALL OF YOUR LIVES BE HAPPY AND SUCCESSFUL.& YOUR SISTER'S LIFE BE HAPPIEST AND MOST SUCCESSFUL.

--
Victimized unluckily
ugly and stupid fellow

Read More

It Is Hard to Believe but It Is Hard Truth

Jul 14, '08


: I have never seen such a brutal person in this world


It has not been one year, neither it has been two years, nor it has been five years, nor it has been 10 years. It has been 15 years, a team of KP [Krishna] Sharma has been following me from behind the curtain. It is too much. It is to say better that it is more than enough. He is troubling me unnecessarily, torturing me inhumanely. He seems to be very inhumane, vicious and unjust to me.

It seems it is such a fiction or a story which they can believe hardly. they who can not understand may think I have gone mad or crazy. Neither I am crazy nor the story is fantasy. This is the true story that I beheld and experienced in my life...either you believe it or not.

The only thing I did is I wanted to live in my own way and to be single rather than living with a bad girl as a life partner. He is too angry with me because i did not marry his sister whom I have never seen in this life. I cannot say how she is, good or bad. Relationship is made friendly, not brutally...The only problem with him is he has a family problem and marrying off his sister. If he has problem, he must tell and ask for help. Nobody will understand his problem without being told.

He warned me to destroy, finish, and ruin my life and block my each and every progress if I did not marry his sister. I have taken nothing from him nor I have harmed anybody in this life. However, he is punishing me for his family problem. If nobody is likely to accept his sister, it is not my mistake. The only ego he lives up is he is a journalist and has a big link and connection with each and every people. He can do anything whatever he likes. However, one is too powerful, one has any weakness in one's life. But he never admits his weakness. He is the lord of evilness and has kept on harming me continually for not marrying his invisible sister.

It is shocking that he has pretended that he is in the USA but staying in Kathmandu and he tends to sabotage and jeopardize my life from behind the curtain claiming that he has done nothing against me. He suggests me visiting psychiatrist for speaking truth. However, I would like to say that he, who claims being away by staying in Kathmandu, is sick and needs to consult the psychiatrist. He seems not to be in normal condition. He speaks false and claiming that he is speaking truth. It may be the psychiatric problem but I don't know what this actually is.

I have suffered too much, experiencing pains and tortures though i have not other problems. Nowadays, I am contemplating suicide rather to tolerate such injustice and live a miserable life. No one may believe in how he is following me and hurting and harming me from behind the curtain. I pary God for granting me death at this moment.

Read More

GOD, Will YOU Hear my Voice?

Jun 29, '08


My Cry for the Supreme Creator/God!


When I weep, they all enjoy,
While I suffer pains, they laugh,
As I feel sad, they become happy,

When I fail in my work, they celebrate,
While I attempt for good, they envy
And resort to foil all at any cost,
As I never harm anybody, they start attacking me,

When I try to entertain my individual rights,
They cut my wings and block my ways,
While I love them, they scorn me,
As I believe them as friends, they turn to be foe and enemy,

When I see all equal, they treat me inhumanly,
While I speak of justice, they commit injustice upon me,
As I argue my philosophy, they label me as impractical
And egotist,

When I speak truth, they term it as fiction
And call me mad and insane, they become fire of anger,
While I express my pains and miseries for catharsis,
They are angry with me and blame me for insulting them,
I always respect them, they insult and hurt me enough,
As I try to dance and celebrate my life, they detonate bomb on me.

So I want to reveal the symbol of THEY,
They is not other than KP Sharma.

Read More

Ego is Quest for Self

Mar 30, '08


Do you Have Ego Problem?


Yes, I have. Don't worry about it. Everybody has ego problem to some extent. It is very important to understand oneself, level of consciousness and their activities. Ego is not bad but super ego may be dangerous. Ego and freedom, I think, are two sides of a coin. If you go into the deeper level, they both are one. Super ego may be destructive and harmful to others, and ego is good for human being if it is well understood. Ego is the best or in other words it is the replica of self esteem whereas it does not harm and hurt others and it doesn't like to be hurt or harmed. This level of conscious of ego is the best thing, I have experienced it. Ego is the super freedom emanated from the state of liberty. I have such kind of ego which is not harmful, never disrespects others but does not care others too, it is my freedom. I am proud of my ego which never intends to harm and hurt others. No man can remain alive ego that is the force or energy for struggle, living and justice.

However, I have witnessed a man with obsessive super ego of position and power. His name is Govinda Sharma, but he lacks the every traits of Lord Krishna, teacher of laughing religion and ecstasy with no anxieties and unconsciousness. I saw Govinda very rude, inhumane and sense of evilness. He used to boast upon his power and position. I saw one of his classmate, named Vishnu Poduwal, who was very simple, innocent and an ordinary fellow with hardworking zeal, sense of humanity and justice, and selfless freedom. He did not like to dishonor others and wanted to live in his own way. he was carefree person like an enlightened philosopher. Many people fail to understand such people and they think such persons are very egoist. But the reality is opposite. They seem egoist, however, they are proud of existence and their freedom and justice. Most of the people who are unconscious and are full of meanness and superego see others with their own ego, they fail to understand others due to the lack of consciousness and eyes of justice.

It is an irony Govinda wanted to show and prove how powerful he is with his simple and innocent fellow. Govinda went on harming, torturing and troubling him for not fulfilling Govinda's mean demand related to his family problem. Govinda hammered on Vishnu for his life long and almost destroyed. He became more cruel, severe and robotic and Vishnu never surrendered to him. This continued till his death. Vishnu was clear and determined that he would accept death or ready to die but not to kneel down under Govinda's feet to solve Govinda's problem. Govinda claimed that Vishnu is too egoist and Vishnu realized that Govinda is not a human being. Govinda went on exhibiting his power of position and misuse of the power against humanity. He even never felt that his weakness and problems were being unveiled day by day but never realized his mistakes. Govinda was never ready to accept his weakness and ask Vishnu for help with mutual understanding and respecting humanity. This trend has been going on for ages and ages, and will reamin until the existence will exist on the universe.

Therefore, now you can examine the egos of Govinda and Vishnu. Can you tell me that having ego is wrong or not? Or who is right in the sense of humanity and freedom? Don't worry about it as ego is freedom, force for existence and energy or backbone of progress in life if it does not lead to catastrophe and destruction?

Read More

I don't want to live more

Jan 15, '08


I am happy to close this chapter of life


Many people, I think, fear death. However, I am excited to meet death, to touch its hands in experience and to embrace it with love and peace, leading to eternal peace.

It is an interesting thing to unveil that I visited an astrologer last week to know about my future. I don't know his predictions are true or not but I am happy with him who predicted that my soul will leave my body and my body will say goodbye to this physical world in 2008. This event will occur in between March and June this year.

I am watching every moment passing by...they are amazing, marvelous and wonderful because only I can see this going on. You may think it is absurd, foolish, stupid, and insane belief. I am sorry I am unable to make you understand in words what I feel now. This is my experience...i am watching...everything is passing on...each will die one day...it is only the matter of sooner or later...I am celebrating this time with rejoice and ecstasy, bliss and happiness...I don't want to live more suffering, suffocating with pains and sores caused by demons, devil souls, lord of evils and unconscious minds which are egoist, sadist and inhumane masters...

If this happens in reality my enemies will be happier but i will be much more happier than all of them who are troubling, torturing and tending to destroy me. Thanks God, I will be the luckier if i can touch almighty death. I am desperately waiting for the moment. But I can't say what will happen later and after death. I feel life is an eternal journey...it was my only one episode on this earth..i am on the way...i will continue my journey till i am salivated with nirvana or get enlightened that i am still unknown about it...i had nothing, i have nothing and i will have nothing...only the experience of journey which is being deleted by time...

Read More

Ignorance is Bliss For him!

May 22, '07


Ignorance is Bliss For him!


He does not care about anything.

The sun was shining as if it was merciless to the living beings. But it was not so, in fact. It was shining to burn the evil things from the earth and to sweep away the dirt and filth accumulated by human being on the city. The sun was inviting a heavy and incessant rain to clean the city.

Rich people smelt perfumes and cosmetics while others were sweating with body odors and laborious deeds. They were on their moods and ways for their own vested purpose, not to blame all, wishing to add one after another compliment of life. Tourists were enjoying their travels to visit the Royal Chitwan National Park, where disappearing Bengal tigers, species of crocodile, many birds, plants, and animals are celebrating the nature together. Tourists enjoyed riding elephants. i was happy to enjoy riding auto rickshaw.

He was pulling rickshaw all day to spend his life in his own way. When he was pulling rickshaw carrying me on the way, he called a woman from her behind during her walks. His face was full of sweats. He had worn a top on his right ear in black checked shirt and blue paint. His slippers were dull like silly dogs barking on the streets. She was in traditional dresses of a woman of suburb. Her lips were red painted and eyes were decorated with black kajol. She was beautiful for him but i was indifferent and aloof to her. He asked her, "Where are you going?" She smiled and said, "There."

I was alone on the two seated rickshaw and he called her to sit by me. She smiled. He again invited her and said, "Come. Sir will not object anything." He addressed me as sir. But she smiled and did not ride the rickshaw because she enjoyed walking on the sun.

He told me that SHE IS THE WOMAN. A CITY BRIDE."She is device or tool for entertainment. I spill my desires on her when i am hot," he whispered slowly. "How old are you? Aren't you married yet?", i asked him. "i am at my thirtees and i have my wife and a daughter," he answered.

"Do you use condom or not? Haven't you heard about deadly diseases?", i questioned him. "I have heard about them but no one has remained away from such indecent activities," he said confidentially. He was just literate.

"How much do you earn daily from your job?", i made another question. "I earn NRs. 300 to 400 each day but i spend on drinks and other entertainment ... like smoking about half of my total income," he answered. "It is my own rickshaw."

He started telling me his stories. His wife has been working in Saudi Arabia and his daughter is a Class Ten student in a local school. He does not care about any STDs.

"What do you think about your wife and daughter?", i asked him. He smiled and kept mum.

Read More

I am tired of living!

Dec 27, '07


Side Effect!?


There was a conflict between two men.The conflict was the matter of existence, self esteem and human rights, and freedom. One of them was torturing, troubling, harming and destroying everything what he could and knew by following with extreme meanness. He used to deploy others, even unknown to the next one, to torture the next one on any way on the way.

The Unknown on the way told the victimized: There is only one way to escape the torture or tackle the troubles.

Victimized: What is that?
Unknown: If you want to be safe from troubles, tortures and harms (suicide), get married immediately. If you want to get rid of marriage, commit suicide.

The victimized decided to kill himself being frustrated and went to a pharmacy to buy suicidal medicine.
Seller: Can I help you, please?
Victimized: I want to commit suicide. Can you help me, please?
Seller: What can I do?
Victimized: Give me such medicine [poison] that has no side effects but kills me without any side effects. Because I want to be healthy after committing suicide.

Read More

I Have Fallen in Love with Silence

Jun 05, '07


I Have Fallen in Love with Silence


Dear Friends,
I am extremely sorry for that I am tired of writing scraps and giving hits to my lovely friends. Therefore, I have decided to remain silence for a period but i cannot say that when this silence will be broken. Please, be patient if you all really love me as a friend. I have fallen into a grave concern of pains in my life...Forgive me for not writing any response to my dear friends...My message is silence:Silence is the symbol of sacred and sublime love...

love from
...prasad...

Read More

A Sublime Moment of Love with an Stranger

May 12, '07


A Sublime Moment of Love with an Stranger


Just some hours ago, i caught a bus bound to Kathmandu from a terai district of Nepal. Many buses were traveling to Kathmandu like many people are visiting this place. I chose a bus in a blue color, which attracted me more not because there were acquainted faces in the bus but because my mood always goes with spiritual world.

It was only a co-incidence. I entered the bus. There was only one seat lying vacant at the last back row of the seats. I took my seat right behind the seats of two ladies.

It is not better to disclose my inner feelings about other people, specially about females. But what i am doing is only the spontaneous flowing of a beautiful moment in course of my journey to Kathmandu, the capital city of Nepal.

Others might think that I always like to write about females. Yes, it is true that females are comparatively superior being in the universe of creation, so I choose to write about them.

One of my hands touched hair of one lady in front of me. Her hair was so smooth, so silky and so sweet as if it was the butter cream pasted in a cake. She turned behind. i was afraid of her and my innocent actions of my fingers. I thought, "I am sorry for it."

But she smiled in a way that she was my acquainted friend. Her smile was like a rainbow on the Autumn evening. She was in red, blue, pink and yellow colored dress. There was a petal of rose flower on her face, fragrance of lily and beauty of innocent merry gold. "Mom, will you taste this piece of snack," she said to the woman beside her. They were talking about Butwal, her brother who is a school student and the fare of bus that was illogical for them.

Unknowingly, my fingers pushed her hair again. I was terribly afraid of her. And she told me, "I am sorry." I said nothing because i don't like to be more formal.

Again, i touched her hands and she did not object. She could not stay unmoved. She was turning left and right, and turning back to me with her hands on top of seat behind her. I touched her fingers, which were like tulip tenders. i caught her one of fingers and she was not angry with me but playful to the situation. She winked her eyes and told me, "Will you like this?" She pointed to the lines written on the window screen of the bus. There was written--YOU ARE THE FAIRY OF BEYOND HORIZON. "It's nice," I said. She smiled.

The bus was still running. We were closer and closer being playful with friendly spirit and impulse of emotions. We traveled for four hours with very joyful moments. Those were few moments among many delightful moments we spent together on the bus. I had potato chips on the bus and she took instant noodles and biscuit. i offered her my chips. She said, "No, thanks!"

Just after we finished eating snacks, she said to me, "You are so greedy. You ate alone." I smiled and she laughed her belly.

I said, "I am getting down at the next stop."
She said, "Bye!" I said, "Tata!"

Just before getting departed, she told me her name. "I am Ayushma Poudel (Chhetry)." My father is Chhetry and Mom is also so. But my grandmother is Bramhin. "I am four year old and i read in Nursery," she told me in a jolly mood with Nightingale voice and oceanic eyes.

Read More