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Sunday, August 31, 2008

I don't want to live more

Jan 15, '08


I am happy to close this chapter of life


Many people, I think, fear death. However, I am excited to meet death, to touch its hands in experience and to embrace it with love and peace, leading to eternal peace.

It is an interesting thing to unveil that I visited an astrologer last week to know about my future. I don't know his predictions are true or not but I am happy with him who predicted that my soul will leave my body and my body will say goodbye to this physical world in 2008. This event will occur in between March and June this year.

I am watching every moment passing by...they are amazing, marvelous and wonderful because only I can see this going on. You may think it is absurd, foolish, stupid, and insane belief. I am sorry I am unable to make you understand in words what I feel now. This is my experience...i am watching...everything is passing on...each will die one day...it is only the matter of sooner or later...I am celebrating this time with rejoice and ecstasy, bliss and happiness...I don't want to live more suffering, suffocating with pains and sores caused by demons, devil souls, lord of evils and unconscious minds which are egoist, sadist and inhumane masters...

If this happens in reality my enemies will be happier but i will be much more happier than all of them who are troubling, torturing and tending to destroy me. Thanks God, I will be the luckier if i can touch almighty death. I am desperately waiting for the moment. But I can't say what will happen later and after death. I feel life is an eternal journey...it was my only one episode on this earth..i am on the way...i will continue my journey till i am salivated with nirvana or get enlightened that i am still unknown about it...i had nothing, i have nothing and i will have nothing...only the experience of journey which is being deleted by time...

Ignorance is Bliss For him!

May 22, '07


Ignorance is Bliss For him!


He does not care about anything.

The sun was shining as if it was merciless to the living beings. But it was not so, in fact. It was shining to burn the evil things from the earth and to sweep away the dirt and filth accumulated by human being on the city. The sun was inviting a heavy and incessant rain to clean the city.

Rich people smelt perfumes and cosmetics while others were sweating with body odors and laborious deeds. They were on their moods and ways for their own vested purpose, not to blame all, wishing to add one after another compliment of life. Tourists were enjoying their travels to visit the Royal Chitwan National Park, where disappearing Bengal tigers, species of crocodile, many birds, plants, and animals are celebrating the nature together. Tourists enjoyed riding elephants. i was happy to enjoy riding auto rickshaw.

He was pulling rickshaw all day to spend his life in his own way. When he was pulling rickshaw carrying me on the way, he called a woman from her behind during her walks. His face was full of sweats. He had worn a top on his right ear in black checked shirt and blue paint. His slippers were dull like silly dogs barking on the streets. She was in traditional dresses of a woman of suburb. Her lips were red painted and eyes were decorated with black kajol. She was beautiful for him but i was indifferent and aloof to her. He asked her, "Where are you going?" She smiled and said, "There."

I was alone on the two seated rickshaw and he called her to sit by me. She smiled. He again invited her and said, "Come. Sir will not object anything." He addressed me as sir. But she smiled and did not ride the rickshaw because she enjoyed walking on the sun.

He told me that SHE IS THE WOMAN. A CITY BRIDE."She is device or tool for entertainment. I spill my desires on her when i am hot," he whispered slowly. "How old are you? Aren't you married yet?", i asked him. "i am at my thirtees and i have my wife and a daughter," he answered.

"Do you use condom or not? Haven't you heard about deadly diseases?", i questioned him. "I have heard about them but no one has remained away from such indecent activities," he said confidentially. He was just literate.

"How much do you earn daily from your job?", i made another question. "I earn NRs. 300 to 400 each day but i spend on drinks and other entertainment ... like smoking about half of my total income," he answered. "It is my own rickshaw."

He started telling me his stories. His wife has been working in Saudi Arabia and his daughter is a Class Ten student in a local school. He does not care about any STDs.

"What do you think about your wife and daughter?", i asked him. He smiled and kept mum.

Relationship is Made of only Two Sides

Feb 06, '08


Relationship is Made of only Two Sides


There were some people debating on relationship and its value.

I was witnessing the event and captured the dialogues in such a way.

First: Sometimes relationship is made of by force and power.

Second: May be. But I think relationship is a matter of compromising with the problems.

Third: No. It is the pure spiritual and divine matter between or among the beings.

Fourth: It is not possible with power and job but possible with love and humanity. It is not made of single party or side.

Fifth: I have a problem that I want to marry off my sister to a being.

Sixth: It is better to give your sister to a bulldog if you fail to understand the humanity.

Seventh: I also want to marry a dog girl because I am unable to understand another person.

First: Then, both of you should compromise ultimately.

I am tired of living!

Dec 27, '07


Side Effect!?


There was a conflict between two men.The conflict was the matter of existence, self esteem and human rights, and freedom. One of them was torturing, troubling, harming and destroying everything what he could and knew by following with extreme meanness. He used to deploy others, even unknown to the next one, to torture the next one on any way on the way.

The Unknown on the way told the victimized: There is only one way to escape the torture or tackle the troubles.

Victimized: What is that?
Unknown: If you want to be safe from troubles, tortures and harms (suicide), get married immediately. If you want to get rid of marriage, commit suicide.

The victimized decided to kill himself being frustrated and went to a pharmacy to buy suicidal medicine.
Seller: Can I help you, please?
Victimized: I want to commit suicide. Can you help me, please?
Seller: What can I do?
Victimized: Give me such medicine [poison] that has no side effects but kills me without any side effects. Because I want to be healthy after committing suicide.

I Have Fallen in Love with Silence

Jun 05, '07


I Have Fallen in Love with Silence


Dear Friends,
I am extremely sorry for that I am tired of writing scraps and giving hits to my lovely friends. Therefore, I have decided to remain silence for a period but i cannot say that when this silence will be broken. Please, be patient if you all really love me as a friend. I have fallen into a grave concern of pains in my life...Forgive me for not writing any response to my dear friends...My message is silence:Silence is the symbol of sacred and sublime love...

love from
...prasad...

A Sublime Moment of Love with an Stranger

May 12, '07


A Sublime Moment of Love with an Stranger


Just some hours ago, i caught a bus bound to Kathmandu from a terai district of Nepal. Many buses were traveling to Kathmandu like many people are visiting this place. I chose a bus in a blue color, which attracted me more not because there were acquainted faces in the bus but because my mood always goes with spiritual world.

It was only a co-incidence. I entered the bus. There was only one seat lying vacant at the last back row of the seats. I took my seat right behind the seats of two ladies.

It is not better to disclose my inner feelings about other people, specially about females. But what i am doing is only the spontaneous flowing of a beautiful moment in course of my journey to Kathmandu, the capital city of Nepal.

Others might think that I always like to write about females. Yes, it is true that females are comparatively superior being in the universe of creation, so I choose to write about them.

One of my hands touched hair of one lady in front of me. Her hair was so smooth, so silky and so sweet as if it was the butter cream pasted in a cake. She turned behind. i was afraid of her and my innocent actions of my fingers. I thought, "I am sorry for it."

But she smiled in a way that she was my acquainted friend. Her smile was like a rainbow on the Autumn evening. She was in red, blue, pink and yellow colored dress. There was a petal of rose flower on her face, fragrance of lily and beauty of innocent merry gold. "Mom, will you taste this piece of snack," she said to the woman beside her. They were talking about Butwal, her brother who is a school student and the fare of bus that was illogical for them.

Unknowingly, my fingers pushed her hair again. I was terribly afraid of her. And she told me, "I am sorry." I said nothing because i don't like to be more formal.

Again, i touched her hands and she did not object. She could not stay unmoved. She was turning left and right, and turning back to me with her hands on top of seat behind her. I touched her fingers, which were like tulip tenders. i caught her one of fingers and she was not angry with me but playful to the situation. She winked her eyes and told me, "Will you like this?" She pointed to the lines written on the window screen of the bus. There was written--YOU ARE THE FAIRY OF BEYOND HORIZON. "It's nice," I said. She smiled.

The bus was still running. We were closer and closer being playful with friendly spirit and impulse of emotions. We traveled for four hours with very joyful moments. Those were few moments among many delightful moments we spent together on the bus. I had potato chips on the bus and she took instant noodles and biscuit. i offered her my chips. She said, "No, thanks!"

Just after we finished eating snacks, she said to me, "You are so greedy. You ate alone." I smiled and she laughed her belly.

I said, "I am getting down at the next stop."
She said, "Bye!" I said, "Tata!"

Just before getting departed, she told me her name. "I am Ayushma Poudel (Chhetry)." My father is Chhetry and Mom is also so. But my grandmother is Bramhin. "I am four year old and i read in Nursery," she told me in a jolly mood with Nightingale voice and oceanic eyes.

Friday, August 29, 2008

A Letter to a Disguised Friend

May 12, '07


A Letter to a Disguised Friend


Dear Joy,

Hug with love of friendship!

I am very much disappointed and it has been very difficult for me to endure pains caused by the very person from behind the curtain.

I think he has unnecessarily harmed me in my life. I thought and believed he would not harmed me anything because i have never harmed anybody nor deceived anybody else. I expressed, "He would do nothing for me as i have not harmed anything of him." But he felt challenged from my simple and plain statement emanated from my heart of belief. It is an irony he took it otherwise. He never told me his problem seriously nor directly nor friendly but blamed me for deceiving him. I have experienced extreme condition of injustice. I requested him through mail to forgive me as a friend if i had made any mistakes in my life. I was ready to sacrifice everything for him if he had told me directly.

I am terribly victimized by the misunderstanding of him and getting punished for his problems. He is too much angry with me but never tells me what his problem is. I am shocked from it. He is too powerful, big, greater and influential, who does not need any of my helps. I have never expected anything from him, neither his money nor his power to get job for me nor his sister to live with. I wish he could have relationship of his sister with bigger, richer, greater, influential, better, more handsome, social, cultured and civilized person. I believe he will get whatever he desires and wants. i am nobody and nothing for him. However, i expect from him only not to obstruct, hinder or ill-recommend me and my attempts to live in my own ways. It will be enough for me to live.

I am not a person to harm others. If i cannot live in peace, i can commit suicide but i am always against fighting the friends. Whatever he has done wrong with me, i forgive him but never go against him. I want to be only true human being but not the devil.

What would you do if you were my friend-turned-foe?

best regards
...prasad...

Speechless Moment: A Sense of Isolation

Apr 19, '07


Speechless Moment: A Sense of Isolation


I said, "Bye".
She said, "OK".
Then we departed for our destinations. She headed towards south and I got up a bus traveling east. We were at the junction of Butwal, business city of central Nepal about two couple of days ago. People were coming and going to their directions from the crossroad.

It seemed the sun was angry with the people who were unaware of scorching heat. It was not too hot but the temperature was above 35 degree Celsius. I was on the road, the road of my destination and destiny.

It looked the trees were running. The bus was full of sounds playing music. In fact, the bus was running and my mind inside the bus was running back to the history of few hours ago.

The place from where I caught the bus was hilly, scenery and fascinatingly serene. The wind was blowing mildly. people were on the opposite and supportive directions respectively. I entered into the bus and looked for a vacant seat. All the front seats were not empty. I went to the behind seats. There was an empty seat along with a girl, who was looking downside. I could not see her face. But her dress was neat and pink color with embroidery. I took the vacant seat.

The bus was moving and heading to its destination. I was silent and she was also silent. I wanted to know about her because I thought we were together by the seats. I wanted to ask, "Sister, can we introduce each other? Where are you going?" But, I pondered upon my thinking and said without uttering voice, "It will be meaner to ask anything about an unknown lady. Why should I ask her for anything when we only met on the bus?" I sometimes peered and she also did so but not at a time.

I remembered one of my friend-turned-foe who might assume that I was so rude, savage, and wild while I was afraid of talking to a human being friendly traveling together. I thought, "It's not necessary to be so because I believe in humanity. If she falls under any problems, I am ready to help her." However, there was not such a coincidence.

She said nothing to me and I was similar to her. More than three hours passed in the same manner. The bus arrived at the junction from where we departed.
Before getting down from the bus, she asked me, "Where are you getting down?"
"At the junction," I said.
"I am too at the same place," she said. "I am going to visit my sister's home but I am not familiar with this place."
"Let's go together to the cross road, and phone your sister to receive you," I said to her.
She phoned her sister and found she was not at home. I came to know from hearing her that her nephew or niece received the phone. They were small and could not take her to their home, she said. "Can you help me to reach there?"

We went at the crossroad and stopped a bus and i told the bus helper to help her getting down by the F.M. station of the town. The helper said, "It is my pleasure to do so. Some people don't say as clearly as you said and later complain us."

Though I am strong feminist, I always hesitate to communicate frankly because I think, "People will take me as a lusty man if I talk or speak to the opposite sexes." However, there was a spiritual communication between us that made us pleasant.

Neither she asked my name nor I asked her name. The traveling is still to continue but it is not certain whether we will meet again or not. "I don't expect to meet her again," I believe.

[This is an allusion to my friend's sister dedicated to Him.]

Thursday, August 28, 2008

A Pretty Prelude to A Friend-Turned-Foe

Apr 11, '07




A pretty song is to know when you are in serious problem,
Choose one of your simple friend who can help you for good,
And start troubling him excessively and become his acute problem,
Then, wait for acceptance from him under immense pressured mood.

Because mental or physical torture may not be crime for them,
Who think power of physics is the entire existence of friendship.
Creating a give-and-take situation would not mean business,
No wonder if they craft a design of you help us and get rid of problem.

Friendship will no more stand a business term to deal with give-and-take,
Only giving from both sides exists as a true and humanitarian relationship.
Give alm of either life or any help to their friend for love as beggar or sage,
It is not love to think of taking back in return to given alms or love.

Therefore, my friends are my love, life, inspiration and support,
But they are not like me as I believe in love of humanity and friendship.
My friends turned to be like foes in a war for colonization of friendship,
However, I am not their enemy but they are not like me as comfort.

I'm Hurt more than Enough!

Apr 05, '07





It has been very difficult for me today--
i am hurt and serious more than a grave
because i could not love myself
Neither i could love others
It is my fate
Believe it or not
It depends on u

But
unknown persons may be
liars and cheaters
Why to believe them ?

But u can feel it
if u have sense of humanity
love and friendship .

Others say such is life
Take it easy,
I'm full of compassion,
I can't believe them,
Because I'm myself
And my feelings are not yours.

A Tale of a Trouble Caused by Friend VS Foe

Apr 07, '07




...FROM PREVIOUS PART...

Dear Joy,

Pleasing to read your mail regarding the details of life perspective.

Really, I am more than hurt. I believed him as my friend but he enjoyed destroying me in the guise of friend. I am very confused between friend as a foe or foe as a friend.

I am still surprised how a friend can destroy his friend but I saw him doing so--he claimed he was my friend and sabotaged and jeopardized my life in the veil of friendship...He wanted, i thought, me to marry his sister whom i had never seen in my life but never tried to make us meet. How can I believe that he was true to this matter and he was my good friend.

To be powerful means does not necessary to be good. He is very powerful person and he planned a grand design to make me alone in this world and hitting me, hurting me blocking me from behind the curtain===he hurt me more than i suffered.==Now i feel and experience i am alone=i am extremely hurt--it has been very difficult to live more==Do you still think he was my friend who destroyed my life for not marrying his invisible sister? I am surprised by what he is doing, if i am not wrong. What will he get by troubling me too much and tending to destroy me?

My life is full of pains and sufferings and no way to live in this world. If he will be happier and achieve success and success more when i am ruined, i pray God to trouble me much more because friend's happiness will be my pleasure

best regards with love
... ;;; ...


...ANOTHER PART...

Dear Intimate,

My happiness knew no boundaries when i got such a friend like u. The God is there from where He loves me too much. I am quite inspired by your allusion of mother's pain and love to her sons. Now, i can feel i can endure whatever pain for my mother's happiness. But I disagree with you to take revenge with my foe as a friend or friend as a foe because I am never against justice and humanity. If i have never harmed anything of anybody else, it is beyond my imagination to harm my friend and all.

However, i cannot be positive with that very being under the veil of friendship who sabotaged my life. He only believes in power and felt challenged when i believed him he would not harm me any way. i thought he would not harm me anything but he took it as my challenge boasting upon the power. You can't imagine how powerful, mischievous, cunning, shrewd, sly and tricky he is. He might be under the full of pains and it is his problem not mine but he does not have any rights to destroy my life. Do you think it is a justice to punish others for his own problem and weakness? His problem is his problem. If he wants to solve it or wants or expects some cooperation from his friends or me, he must tell me directly and propose for help. I could do any kind of help to him, if he has been simple and easy. How can i see his internal pain or problem without telling me anything? Is it my mistake not to know his problem, what do u think my friend? And now he has been continually attacking me blaming me for not helping him as friend. Can he mend broken mirror similar to the relationship? If he dares to mend the relationship, he must take initiation with correcting his past mistakes and wrong doings under the play of super power. If I hurt and destroy you, can you still take me as earlier as before, suppose, we were friends? i feel i am very simple and straightforward person with compassion.

Contrary to me, he is super-powerful and not a man of understanding humanity but only of power. He enjoys destroying others. If i can, i will never harm him because i am not like him. Ending friendship with him is enough for him as a punishment. I am not demon or devil to follow him and take revenge with such robotic hearts. One day, he will certainly realize that if he has not harmed his friend under the play of power, his friend (me) would certainly help him and hug him with love and humanity. It is not my job to make him understand me how simple kind of person i am.

However, he is almost under the line of human being and near to a mean and clever King. Do you want to know about his deceptive tricks? He hatched a plan of staying in the USA by staying in Kathmandu, changing his residential location and continuing his office by the night? And he wants to convince me that he has not done anything against me because he reportedly claims that he is not in the country or town. Can you understand now what kind of person he is? Is he true to humanity or friendship?

When I want to begin my life in new ways, he creates obstacles and obstruction everywhere. I remember his one saying to me---"...will stop your every progress and bring tsunami in your life because you (me) did not do what I (he) wanted...". Now, evaluate yourself, what kind of person he is. If he needs my help, he could propose or ask me directly and friendly and i could help him or sacrifice everything for him as part of value of friendship. I could help him anything if he had asked me directly.

Now, can you understand me what kind of person i am? How can i understand others' problems without being revealed it? I am not God to know everything about of others...

I hope u will understand me well

Love from
...;;;...


...NEXT PART...

Thought is Reflection of FOOD!

Apr 01, '07





The Yoga has categorized the food in three sections: Satwik, Rajasi and Tamasi, which are derived from three qualities of edible elements. They are Satwa, Rajas and Tamas. These days number of vegetarian people are increasing day by day as the science has proved that eating meat is consuming various diseases. No one denies that man is naturally a vegetarian animal. It's characteristics and organs are made of vegetarian nature unlike preys and flesh eating animals.

Satwik: The very food chosen of vegetables with soft, hygienic, digestible are without harmful elements for physical and mental body. Yogis and other meditative persons use it. Albert Einstein, Shakespeare, Leonardo Da Vinci and many more genius persons were vegetarians like Krishna, Buddha, Mahatma Gandhi and others. Peace, love and compassion are its traits. This helps human being rise above and above spiritually.

Rajashi: The food which is spicy, oily and fleshy gives human being energy, anger, and stupidity that inspires human being to violence, killing, fight and crimes. Conspiracy, wildness and brutality are its features.

Tamasi: The food which include rotten things, wine, drugs and many more with bad smelling items. This kind of food is the representation of unconscious, and fainted condition of human being, and Savage nature may be its characteristics.

So choose your kind of food and be yourself as true human beings. It depends on YOU.

We Resemble What We Eat

Mar 25, '07





It is said that face is the context of mind and i say that body is the context of what we eat. The things what we eat determine what we think, how we think and what we do. Our actions are the results of what we eat.

Think twice.

Since the historic age or beginning of the world or creation, living things depend on eating to survive. All the animals have known what to eat or not to eat but unfortunately human being despite most intelligent animal has forgotten what to eat and what to avoid. That is why human being has become mentally, psychologically and physically and spiritually ill.

if u want to be right healthy, do not forget the Yoga and meditation, and the category of foods that is inscribed in the Yoga or holy books of the only Hindus.

Conceive Once.

They are: SATWIK, RAJASI and TAMASI. Search about these three terms and choose your way of eating and be a true mankind.


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Nepal Vacation

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It has geographical extremes from highest mountain to the deepest gorge of the world, and hot plains, mild hills and cold mountains in the same country. There are eight highest mountains above 8000 meters of the world, covering 800 miles of the Himalayan ranges.

Natural beauty and cultural identities are its lively and legendry phenomena that can make your destination holiday in Nepal spellbound and magically touched. See and touch it once and feel it forever. Those who have their hobby of visiting new places, they will feel that Nepal is one of the places that is to visit at least once before you die.

Anyone who reads about Nepal will find more than what one imagines as one treads on its thrilling trails, snowy slopes, mysterious dens and wonderful beauties of wildlife and flora and fauna such as yarchgumba ( Himalayan energetic herb known as half animal and half plant). Make your Nepal holidays memorable on finding fresh scents in air and more challenging paths on the lanes of trekking trails.

Nepal, country of Himalayas, is best known for the trekking and adventure travels. Adventure holidays will be more fascinating and mysterious into the terrain of high Himalayas, dense national parks, giant white rivers and the rocking scene of mountains which can be experienced as one goes on trekking, white water rafting, safari and climbing on its unsurpassable geographical features. In other words, trekking vacations in Nepal will be more amazing for walking up to Mt. Everest, highly dangerous Annapurna and many more.

On the other hand, its festivals are dynamic and enthralling, full of energy and life, and rich with unique excitement. In Nepal, each carnival traditionally begins with something spiritual, religious and moves with spontaneous spirit into a pleasant family feast, being the replica of the core of Nepali culture.

At the same time, the harmonious coexistence of multi-cultures is one of the most enchanting aspects of Nepal, where 70 ethnic groups having their own identity, system, beliefs, languages and life-styles live. It is said that "In Nepal, Every other building is a temple; every other day is a festival". Nepal’s wonderful cultural heritages, enlisted in world heritage sites, are invaluable resources, which are worthy of visiting once.

Whether you believe it or not Nepal is thought to be one of the best destinations of the world. So, you can have Nepal vacation rejoicing Nepalese cultures and nature, and meditative land throughout the year. However, the best season starts from September and lasts till May for all the holiday purposes.

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Tuesday, August 26, 2008

The Most Important Thing of the World in Life

Mar 28, '08


I am very much excited, curious and wild to enter the new world of blog writing in my own style. It is surprising for me that I find others writing about their topics and issues, which are already written in many books, newspapers and magazines.

I never want to follow the copy-paste formulas of writing, neither believe in following others. However, I can't claim that I will write much better.

My writing may fall under the worse category but I don't care about it. I know one thing is I will keep on only writing whatever I feel and I see. My writing is like a fable I fabricated that follows in this way:

Once upon a time there was a clever man named the Great, who wanted to marry off his cute and innocent sister to the Great man of the world. He wanted to give his sister either to the son of US president or sons of Indian Prime Minister and President or British Prince or Japanese Prince or Nepalese Prince. He found all of them but MEAN. Finally, he decided to marry off his sister Siddarth GAUTAM, a very good man and a journalist of NTV, Nepal. He thought that journalists were the most powerful persons of this world. In fact, they really are powerful. They always think that power is everything. They think job is most important thing in this world, and they take relationship in the second position and life in the third position.

However, my philosophy argues that life is in the first position, then relationship in the second and job is in the third although every sector has its own importance. What is the most important thing in this world? Can you comment on, please?

Monday, August 25, 2008

Unbelievable Tragedy I Have Faced For No Reason

Mar 31, '08

I Experienced the Meanness and Evilness Depicted Like in the Movies and Reels in My Real Life

I could never imagine such things in the real life though they were seen in the reel life and people entertained much on the fiction and fantasy. It is hard for me to believe what I experienced and came to witness in my own life. It is deadly and scary even to imagine the incidents and actions I had to encounter in my life. You may be shocked or everyone who believes in humanity will be shocked by the events that I am going to express on this blog.


Posted on: April 1, '08

I was born in a middle class family of a rural part of Nepal. The society in which I was brought up was very traditional, conservative and majority of the people were uneducated. In our small family, my mother, father and two brothers lived together. There was only one female in my family. She is my mother whom I love too much. It is a story when I was studying in a government school in the secondary level. I was not bad in the study. I used to stood third, second and first in the class results. Most of the people used to get married at their teens except those studying. Only about 60 per cent of the children in the village were enrolled in the schools. Children were forcefully married by the parents and guardians on their will. There was no way out for the children and youths to escape unwanted marriages. Although child marriage was illegal, it was not new for them and was rampant in the area. I was one of those victimized children. My story goes in this way:

Posted on: April 20, '08

I was determined to pursue my further study and dreamed a simple job to lead a simple life. My father was not bad but he was innocent person. It was a terrible time for me when my father passed away when I was studying Intermediate level. He was suffering from cancer. My evil days began as I was fallen under the injustice of seniors. My father was more than simple and innocent. Some clever relatives manipulated him by saying that it would be better if your son got married the girl they proposed. They suggested him to stop my study if I rejected their proposal. I was weak and helpless. Neither I could fight them nor could escape from the home as I could see difficult life away from home. This fear forced me to get victimized and face the unwanted circumstances. The relationship of forceful marriage started worsening day by day and finally it reached to a separation and breakage leading to an end for vicious situations.

They were not good enough human being. They never realized their mistake and imposed all the negative impacts blaming me for making mistake. I did not know whether it was mistake or not. But I knew only my freedom and liberty, humanity, justice and rights of a human being not to be forced for marriage. I respect all the human being and don't like to interfere and intervene into others' life. It was my only mistake and wanted to live a peaceful and independent life. But the time was cold for me. They hatched a conspiracy that I was the man to finish her. It was after about a decade when I was studying Bachelor's degree in the town. They secretly searched a man for her and the man who was living in Varanasi, India married the woman and fled to India. They who wanted to sabotage and jeopardize my life filed a case in the police blaming me that I killed her. I was shocked so much I could not tackle the problem.

Posted on: May 9, '08

It was the time when I was pursuing my Bachelor's Degree staying away from home. There were a few of my friends who could understand my problem and initiated to help me. They were very nice persons like their names Ganesh Pandey, Bijaya Raj Ghimire, and Tirtha Raj Kandel. The very persons Ganesh and Bijaya, who were involved in student politics in campus too, complained the authority strongly that the case was illegal and fake, and force the administration to cancel the fake case. They helped me a lot and saved of from the hitch. I was so much grateful towards them and assured to help them whatever i can and whenever they need. Ganesh told me that I should help Krishna Sharma, who is the very friend of Ganesh and Tirtha, had a small problem. I was happy with them but I was frustrated and started hating the marriage affair.

After few months, Tirha met me with the proposal of Krishna's sister. I told him, "It is good for me but I am sad to say that my life is full of problems. If I marry her, she will suffer much because of my problems. I never wanted to see her sad as she was as my sister. I told him to marry off her to a better man so that she would be happier than with me." She got married with a man who was educated, a teacher and a kind person. He owned a school and was the principle of the school. Everybody liked him and they used to say him a 'good' man.

After 10 years, I met her along with Tirtha. It was 2001. I saw her first time. Her name was Radha. She was happy and her husband was also happy with three children, a beautiful house of a small family.

I had never known that Krishna had another sister. Tirhta wanted to test me. He asked me if i wanted to marry her. I told him that if it was possible I was ready for that time. At the meantime, I had just completed my M.A. after working some years after Bachelor's Degree because of the financial problem. But Krishna completed his study regularly and got a good government permanent job as a journalist in the government media. He was very great, big and powerful man. I told Tirtha, "If Krishna and his sister accept me, I am happy for it." Neither they proceed it nor i did thinking that I was inferior to them. However, the relationship could not be made this time too. The matter continued worsening. They blamed me for rejecting them. I was shocked when I was not given any chance to proceed the matter. I tried once they lingered and pretended that she was already married to RAJENDRA GAUTAM, an NTV journalist. They started me following and destroying my life in each corner and sector of my life. I was more shocked while they called me deceptive. Even I had never seen her in my life. It seemed it was a grand design of a grand conspiracy.

Posted on: May 11, '08

Now, all of them have turned to be pillar of enemies. They have followed me, blocked me everywhere...they have said they would stop my progress and life...they would not ease any way to walk for me. They have tortured me too much, troubled me more than enough....and i am unable to tolerate any thing...now i am contemplating suicide because it is more difficult for me to live than to die...

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

When I Woke up at Midnight

Thursday, May 17, 2007

This is a real story that happened in my life. This piece of creation came after I dreamt a nightmare last night, which disturbed my sleeping. The story goes in this way: Once upon a time there were two friends. One was too powerful and boastful upon it for holding powerful position as he could influence everywhere, gripping authority. Another was too logical and argumentative who was boastful upon existence. Powerful One had a cute sister and Logical One never wanted to marry. Here is an excerpt of their intelligent debate.


Powerful One: You must propose first for the marriage since I am too powerful and can do whatever I want.

Logical One: I don't propose because I don't know how to propose the marital affair but will accept if others propose me. And I think I am not worthy of marriage proposal.

Powerful One: You will die like a dog on the street if you don't marriage [by proposing].

Logical One: Then, a dog will marry your sister.
Powerful One: Nonsense! You are absurd, egoist, mean, selfish and coward creature.


Logical One: Yes. No, I am German (Shepherd).

[The joke of the Day.


Logical One refers to me and Powerful One is my friend.]

My Body Organs May Save Others' Life

Feb 20, '08

I Want to Donate my Body Organs

Every one knows each living being must die one day. However, many of them, if I am not in illusion, have forgotten and accustomed to live under the fit of unconsciousness and commit sins rather than be a benevolent being. I don't know the reason for that.

I know and feel that I must die. My body will decompose and physically eliminated into the earth. My dead body will be burnt to ash and flow into the air or mix into the soil. I am surprised whether I could make any useful effort to anybody else. Certainly, I helped and sacrificed my life for very few persons of my family. I have done good for only a few people in this world. I was selfish to this matter. My body is not mine, my organs are not mine, my soul is not mine, in fact, everything is not mine. NATURE or GOD or SUPER POWER or EXISTENCE made everything. I am only a part of this world. Nothing more than that. I understand this.

Now, I want to donate all of my body organs to needy persons if possible so that some would get life from my wasting parts of the body. Therefore, I have already registered my name for the donation of my eyes after my death. One or two visually impaired people will see the world through my eyes. I wish two females could get my eyes. I want to donate my kidney too to one of persons who are involving in human rights, humanitarian projects, welfare of children, women and people or people from education or science sector that they can help many people and save the lives.

I am a single person. I am nobody but simple, a vegetarian, humanity lover who will be happier only when I will get opportunities to donate my body organs. PLEASE, DON'T HESITATE TO CONTACT ME SOONER IF YOU ARE IN NEED OF BODY ORGAN TO SAVE PRECIOUS LIFE THAT CAN BE DIVINE AND FRUITFUL TO MANY PEOPLE.

Sunday, August 17, 2008

Life is not just a Puzzle?!

Friday, March 23, 2007


Life is just not A Puzzle!?
They said I was a mad, insane and foolish,
I looked into myself but found it was true,
Because I failed to accept their proposal
Of giving me a government job contaminated
With conspiracy, tension, corruption and inhumanity,
Not because the job was not holier.

They told me I was selfish, rude, savage and cruel,
I examined inside where they could not be denied,
As I had never harmed anybody else in this world,
Neither I deceived anybody in dealing with matters,
Of humanity, mankind, sacrifice, dedication and equality,
But because I could not understand them in nature.

They called me egoistic and arrogant like a terrorist,
I sneaked into my inner petals where there was space,
For I never disrespected them and endeavored to undermine the values,
Which contain the welfare of both enemies and friends together,
They were angry with me as I was simple, honest but not handsome,
Not because I could do adjust to the tune of evil doers.

They called me philosophical and impractical akin to a robot,
I scrutinized under where I found freedom and liberty,
Since it was my life in which I enjoyed pleasures in pains,
I told them my life is my life, not yours to be dictated by Godot,
But because those chosen pains, sorrow, griefs and sufferings,
Were more pleasant and happier than those happiness not chosen.

Because I want to be myself like whatever I am,
Not because I do not love them,
But because I can see them inside me,
And I am reflected on them.

Thursday, August 14, 2008

It's Me Who Is Alone in This World...

I had thought i was among the crowds
when i was conscious i found myself
among the vicious circles projected plots of conspiracy.
It was not, in fact, true because it was me in the mirror
they said mirrored on the mirror what i am .
However, i could not believe them
because they were mirrored on me
unlike i am the virtue of vice.
And i was sabotaged and jeopardized
not because i failed to fulfill their demands
but because i could not recognize myself.

It looks like who i am not.

It is Something about Me?!

Once upon a time, I was eternal in the universe. I was so good, wise, clever, peaceful, lovely and gentle. When my father fell in love with a woman-would-be-my-mother, I was bound to be born on this earth. Then I am destined to suffer the miseries, pains and pleasure of life in this material world. Now, I am called a foolish, stupid, unpractical, philosophical, rude, sly and so on as If I was sent on this planet, I am to be punished for nothing.

Every then, and here and now, I am very much grounded on reality and investigation rather than believing in rhetorics, verbal layer and play of language and words. My life is full of struggles from the beginning. My father passed away when I was studying Intermediate level. I was the senior or responsible person to handle my family with my mother and two brothers at that time. I started teaching as an English grammar teacher in a public school after I had just taken the final year examination of B.A in !993. i worked there for more than a year. Then I joined a private school where I served one year. Because of my passion to work more, I along with other three partners thrived to open a private English School where I was vice-principal for two years. At that time, conflict and violence was increasingly threatening the whole society and country. Due to the same reason which forced me to turn my way, I appeared in an examination taken by the Palpa District Education Office for the secondary level English teacher. I passed the exam and interview but rejected to receive the appointment letter. I sold my share of the school and joined another Higher Secondary School as a teacher and administrator. I worked there as teacher, administrator and chief-editor of the monthly school magazine for three years.

In 1999, I joined M.A. in the Central Department of English, Tribhuvan University, Kathmandu and completed M.A. in English Literature in 2001. In 2002, I joined the state owned national English daily The Rising Nepal as a correspondent for the Kathmandu Valley. Hundreds of news articles on different topics have been published in the daily. I left the The Rising Nepal in 2006 during the Royal regime at the eve of the People's Movement 2006 for supporting the democratic movement. Another reason to leave the job: two powerful friends tried to sabotage and jeopardize my plans and life accusing me of not marrying sister of one of my friends. Now, I am very much serious, sensitive and philosophical about each event and attitude towards life struggling for quest for identity and justice for humanity. I am still single and not interested much more in the marriage affair because of my freedom fond behavior.

Feeling Love, Happiness & God: Meditation as a Science

Kathmandu (Nepal): "Love is absolute freedom. Love knows no boundaries. And unless you drop all boundaries, you will not be able to know love." "Love is not a passion, love is not an emotion. Love is a very deep understanding that somebody somehow completes you. Somebody makes you a full circle. The presence of the other enhances your presence. Love gives freedom to be yourself; it is not possessiveness." When "Mediation becomes your love", "You disappear from the collective world, "You start seeing things as they are", "You feel silence, serenity, deep joy bubbling inside your being".--All excerpts are from Osho books.

All of the above words of Osho are related to meditation and divine love. You believe it or not, it is my experience that meditation can be done, and love can be felt and experienced in Osho Tapoban, an International Commune and Forest Retreat Center instead of reading them in books. You can see about 500 people dancing joyfully, bewildered in ecstasy on Saturdays. No one can remain aloof from the dancing tune and environment. Everyone starts dancing or shaking their body without hesitation in the Commune. Established in 1990, Osho Tapoban covering an area of about 100 ropanis of land is located at the outskirts of Kathmandu valley on the way to Kakani, amidst the Himalayan forest Nagarjuna, 10 kilometers away from Kathmandu city center and five kilometers from Balaju bypass.

Acharya Rajneesh (1931-1990) was born Rajneesh Chandra Mohan, presently known as Bhagwan Shree Rajneesh, in Kuchwara, a town in central India. Various sources state that "Bhagwan" means either "The Blessed One" or "God" and that "Shree" means "Master". At the end of his life, he changed his name to Osho.His parents' religion was Jainism. However, Osho never subscribed to any religious faith during his lifetime. He received "sambodhi" (enlightenment in which his soul became one with the universe) on 1953-MAR-21 at the age of 21. Rajneesh obtained a masters degree in philosophy from the University of Saugar. He taught philosophy at the University of Jabalpur for nine years and concurrently worked as a religious leader. In 1966, he left his teaching post and gave his full attention to teaching his sannyasins (disciples) while pursuing a speaking career.Osho developed new forms of active meditation, among 108 methods of it. The best known is Dynamic Meditation which often starts with strenuous physical activity followed by silence and celebration. These were expected to lead the individual to overcome repression, lower their personal inhibitions, develop a "state of emptiness", and attain enlightenment. The person then would have "no past, no future, no attachment, no mind, no ego, no self." Osho assigned a new name to each of the disciples. Men were given the title "Swami"; women were called "Ma".He taught a form of Monism, that God was in everything and everyone. There is no division between "God" and "not-God". People, even at their worse, are divine. He explained that the purpose of his jokes was to shock people and to encourage them to examine their identification with and attachment to their ethnic or religious beliefs. His contention was that national, religious, gender and racial divisions are destructive. Courtesy: Online Sources.

Tired of their hectic routines, people from all walks of life, whether they are school students, college or university students, professionals, engineers, doctors, ordinary folks, male or females and older generations visit the holy place of Tapoban specially at Satsang program on Saturdays and meditation camps organized every week, special occasions and full moons. Meditation is thought to be a scientific therapy, which helps heal and cure people from psychological, mental and emotional ailments.

People visit the commune, where there are two dozens of residential members, and take part in the Satsang program on Saturdays. Swami Ananda Arun pacifies the curiosities of visitors as well as of Osho disciples in a humorous way. The number of young generation in the Satsang counts for higher data. "It is a good symptom for spiritual development of young generation. The thirst for religion in an older age may be so-called in which age nothing more could be done. Young age is the ripe time of energy and productivity that can win the world," he said.

Swami Arun, who has given neo-sanyas to about 20,000 Nepalese and approximately 5,000 foreigners including Indians, said that life is ecstasy and celebration instead of worrying and taking it seriously. "If one is happy he can only make others happy. How can a sad man make others happy? Meditation is medicine to make a sad man happy by relieving one from mind and joining with the heart," he said.

"Feel more, think less, and you will be more and more happy," Osho. "Nothing can be more important than this dive from the head to the heart."Suman Uprety and Surendra Thapa, both hailed from Chitwan, who are Master's in Business Studies students at the Central Department of Management, Tribhuvan University, Kirtipur said that their first visit at Tapoban was quite interesting and joyful. They used to read the Osho books and journals. "We have heard that Tapoban is environmentally and naturally a good place and spiritually a divine place." Thapa remarked that the place was very peaceful and full of healthy environment with enough oxygen.

Both of them agreed that they had not heard any indecent things about Tapoban. "I was too much curious about commune culture, sanyasins and the maroon (red) dress of Sanyasins but unable to know the inner reality. It is difficult to comment on any activities that occur in churches and temples," Uprety added in a tone of skepticism. "We don't believe in what others comment hypothetically. It is not necessary to believe in their hypothesis and criticism rather than knowing the facts well. However, we are yet to understand the commune well in depth."Swami Anand Arun said that unlike traditional sanyas, neo-sanyas initiated by Osho belongs to the spirit of the holy book Geeta, which indicates renouncing doer rather than doing. "This sanyas allows to use everything meditatively but not to escape from the world and life.

"Osho philosophy and religion is sometimes criticized by the traditional and orthodox believers for being open about sex and its interpretation. Swami Arun says sex is related to every spectrum of life. "Sex is life energy. It is the beginning of life and inspiration of life," said Swami Arun. "However, it is false and wrong assumption to link the commune with sexual activities." "I welcome all of them who doubt over the commune activities to visit the commune and to examine what is happening here," he added.

Swami Arun said that traditional and orthodox religion could not accept the sex and poisoned it. "Only escaping from sex and being involved in sadhana would not help us to get rid of sex. We need to synchronize, consolidate and manage the sex as Osho has guided us. Sex can be a ladder for meditation to go ahead for the divine journey.

"Swami Arun said that meditation is a scientific tool for catharsis of repressed human feelings. "It has been psychologically and scientifically proved that human psyche is affected by daily activities of human being. Humanity has stepped down due to the irrational behavior, violence and brutality."

"Meditation is an appropriate scientific and religious therapy to excrete the repressed physical, mental, emotional and psychological tensions and filth from the body," he added. Medication, which is a chemical solution for illness, may have many side effects though it can cure some diseases whereas meditation, which can purify heart, nurture and stimulate wisdom and develop humanity, is a natural way to treat human being and natural solution of life problems, said Swami Arun. "Psychologists have claimed that about 80 per cent of human diseases are caused by mental problems and stress.

"Swami Bishnu Chaitanya from Kathmandu said that he was having anti-depression medicines for months, which were effective only during the course. "As I went through meditation, I got relieved from the problem of stress and depression, and now meditation is my medicine, which has healed me enough dissolving tensions."

Physiological Benefits of Meditation

Deep rest-as measured by decreased metabolic rate, lower heart rate, and reduced work load of the heart.Lowered levels of cortisol and lactate-two chemicals associated with stress.Reduction of free radicals- unstable oxygen molecules that can cause tissue damage.Decreased high blood pressure.Higher skin resistance. Low skin resistance is correlated with higher stress and anxiety levels.Drop in cholesterol levels. High cholesterol is associated with cardiovascular disease. Improved flow of air to the lungs resulting in easier breathing. This has been very helpful to asthma patients. Decreases the aging process. Higher levels of DHEAS in the elderly. An additional sign of youthfulness.

Psychological Benefits of Meditation

Increased brain wave coherence.Greater creativity.Decreased anxiety.Decreased depression Decreased irritability and moodiness Improved learning ability and memory.Increased self-actualization.Increased feelings of vitality and rejuvenation.Increased happiness.Increased emotional stability.

Spiritual Benefits of Meditation

The longer an individual practices meditation, the greater the likelihood that his or her goals and efforts will shift toward personal and spiritual growth. Many individuals who initially learn meditation for its self-regulatory aspects find that as their practice deepens they are drawn more and more into the realm of the "spiritual." In her work with many cancer and AIDS patients, Dr. Borysenko has observed that many are most interested in meditation as a way of becoming more attuned to the spiritual dimension of life. She reports that many die "healed," in a state of compassionate self-awareness and self-acceptance. Courtesy: Online sources.

Ma Dhyan Surabi (Dr. Nisha Jha, practicing at the children's ward of Nepal Medical College, Jorpati of Kathmandu), who started reading Osho from Class Nine, said that meditation was an effective scientific method to get rid of stress and depression. She, who recently completed her MBBS, said more than 75 per cent of the human diseases are borne by psychological reasons. "Meditation, which smoothes our life, is very reliable device for stress management and for mental purity and peace. We can perform our work well after we practice one our meditation each day," she added, sharing the experience of meditation. "I felt ecstasy and bewildered, experienced feeling of love, kindness in my heart and the fountain of love emerges for sharing it and giving it others.

"However, she is still confused about the seven energy centers of the body as assumed by Yoga and spiritual values. "I tried to find out those centers in the human body when I had to dissect the dead bodies in course of practical classes but I could not trace them in the body," she said. "But I have felt flowing energy in the body."Swami Dhyan Rishi (Adarsha Bhandary from Biratnagar), a residential member of the commune for last two years, said that meditation was one of his basic needs. He left his home after he completed his I. Sc. and then he completed the computer programming course that helped him find a job in the commune. "Meditation is necessary for a person who lives in multidimensional world being involved in various activities.

"The meditation helped him to understand life easily and build confidence in tackling the difficulties in life. "I used to be pinched or hurt and feel irritation before I practiced the meditation. I learned to live a playful life through it," he said. "I had never thought the life could be so easier. Love, joy and happiness have bloomed in my life because of the meditation."He thinks marriage for the sake of sex is not necessary for him. "The meditation helped me understand what sex is. I will marry if the marriage can become a part of my meditation," he added.

Tapoban has been a retreat center for also the foreigners. Ma Dhyan Nidhi (Natalia Kamchskaya, first year student at Economic University of Moscow) is here in Tapoban for about three months. She came here as a tourist and has been staying at Tapoban practicing meditation in the tune of commune routine. The regular meditation starts at 7 a.m. and ends at 9 p.m. everyday. "The life style of the commune is very much interesting," she said. "My parents teased me enough and I left Russia because of tension. The meditation has tremendously transformed my feeling into love and happiness.

"Many people who came in the commune and endured the meditation practices were corrected from their bad habits and illnesses. Ma Kundan, 53, from Dharan, who has been staying as a residential member for eight years, has witnessed many people recovered from addictions. She illustrated an example of one of her relatives, who used to have marijuana, alcohols, smoking. He recovered from his bad habits after he practices meditation for three months. However, she refused to divulge the details of the person.

She further said Pravas Devkota from Kathmandu, who completed his study from USA, was an addict. According to her, he could do nothing without having drug injection. "He came here regularly for meditation. And now, he is all right. He visits commune frequently," she said. She expressed her qualm about the poor people who are deprived from staying in the commune. "If they do not have money, how can they afford to stay here? It should not have been in the place of God."

How to Write Something Accurately

Wednesday, January 31, 2007

News is any new information or current events. The reporting of news falls into the field of journalism. News is often reported by a variety of sources, such as newspapers, television and radio programs, wire services, and web sites. News reporting is a type of journalism, typically written or broadcast in news style. Most news is investigated and presented by journalists and can be distributed to various sites via news agencies. The weather is typically presented by a Weather reporter.Contents[hide]1 Newsworthiness2 Objectivity3 Etymology4 See also//

[edit] Newsworthiness To be considered newsworthy, an event usually must have broad interest in one or more news values[citation needed]:Effect (how many people were, are or will be affected?)Timeliness (did the event occur very recently?)Revelation (is there significant new information, previously unknown?)Proximity (was the event nearby geographically?)In recent years increasing weight has also been given to the following news values[citation needed]:-Entertainment (does it make for a fun story?)Oddity (was the event highly unusual?)Celebrity (was anyone famous involved?)News items and journalism can be divided in various ways, although there are grey areas. Distinctions include between hard news (serious and timely topics) and soft news (lighter topics); breaking news (immediate events); news analysis; and enterprise or investigative reporting, in which a topic is examined in great detail.News coverage traditionally begins with the "five W's and the H"—who, what, where, when, why and how.

[edit] Objectivity In democracies, news organizations are often expected to aim for objectivity: Reporters try to cover all sides of an issue without bias, as compared to commentators or analysts, who provide opinion or personal point-of-view.In the United Kingdom, limits are set by the government agency Ofcom, the Office of Communications. Both newspapers and broadcast news programs in the United States are generally expected to remain neutral and avoid bias except for clearly indicated editorial articles or segments.Many single-party countries have operated state-run news organizations, which may present the government's views. Even in those situations where objectivity is expected, it is difficult to achieve, and individual journalists may fall foul of their own personal bias, or succumb to commercial or political pressure. Individuals and organizations who are the subject of news reports may use news management techniques to try to make a favourable impression.

[edit] EtymologyLook up news inWiktionary, the free dictionary."News" developed as a special use of the plural form of "new" in the 14th century. In Middle English, the equivalent word was 'newes', based on the French 'nouvelles'.It is, as is often claimed, an acronym for "north, east, west, south".